Hey Everyone!!!
what's going on??
why is everyone depressed come on try not to, life is way to short to worry about things, i know it's hard believe me but at least talk to ur friends about and remember someone out that has it worse then u do, it's soooooo true, well hope everyone had a pretty good weekend i know's it's still saturday night but still. that totally sucks that there was nothing going down tonight cause i thought there was. i wanted to see u guys all haven't in a few weeks :( *tear* well we will all chill, Brooke and I will come out, call us, my number *416-841-7544* my cell, alright well i am sooooo tired so i hope everyone is doing pretty good, so sweet dreams to all, and loven u all, peace. :)

wow such a depressing mood in so much of these posts, i feel like the odd one out... must find something to depressed.... *thinks thinks thinks* ouch no more of that...... I GOT IT, damn i work at wall mart lol naa that dosn't work all that that means is i fuck up my weekend and get paied so meh. ok hummmmmm what can i come up with damnit why is everyone depressed u all suck :P k well im on my way to work in an hour and for the people that showed up to my house last night... if you looked in the window i feel sorry for you my mom told me what she was wearing when she saw people outside the door at 12:30 HAHAHAHAHA lets just hope you didn't see anything you didn't want to lol but yes i passed out my grandma stole my bed and i passed out on the couch try phoneing me before work to let me know whats going on instead of just hopeing ill be up thank you :P later all AND CHEER THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont think ill be there today guys ..... i got alot of shit that needs to be done .... and im not in the mood to have other people around ....drunk .... but we shall see
brooke call me when ever you feel like it ... odds are im gonna just curl up here and say fuck it to whatevers going on .. un less its intriguing (spelling is off ... its 7 am .. and i dont care lol)
casey ... i didnt really feel like fighting your brother ..... so i took my leave .. fighting a drunk when sober just isnt my thing ... regardless of if he is military or not
i havent fought in a long time hehe .... mighta been fun ... assuming i didnt piss him off while sparring

well thats another night down the drain ... what ever
fuck it

Alright, I've already sobered up. All I had was half that 26er of vodka and some of my brothers whiskey. My brother is making breakfast for 4 even though its just the two of us still awake. Matts passed out on the couch, dans passed out in the basement, lauras gone to sleep in the basement. leslie and wagner are walking home, liz is on her way here. Now im just killing time. I guess everyone knows how bad a drunk my brother is now but meh. Im just glad he does'nt live with me anymore. Damn everyone for falling asleep so early. Its not fair to me. Well I guess I dont really have anything to say so I'll just stop now. Tomorow should be just as much fun. I'll have to open my 26er of rum.

hey hey, wagners first post, we need to celebrate. must drink a round. wagner you better be coming.

hmmmmmmm......feeling depressed.........oh fuck it all..........

Well everyone this is the end to an extremely boring week. A lot of bad things have happened this week, so I hope that the weekend is better. Diana we really need to chill, I need to be with my best friend cause right now everything seems upside down and confusing!!! Jesse is a complete ass, and I am so pissed at him. All he does is lie and cheat and act like a fucking jerk!!!!! Anyways seeing Graham was weird, and yes he is still with his GF and I'm happy for him, because he seems very happy. With Rob I dont know what is up with that, but like everything else it wont work out, I can guarantee that. I also really miss seeing Bryan so Diana we should chill with him some time soon k? That guy probably wont call but whatever well get a hold of him and his sexy friends k? Anyways I really want to go shopping so I hope that you can come with me on the weekend and then I can meet your family (yes Miami) I'll get rollerblades so that I can start to come with you guys I havent seen all of them in so long.
Leslie Im glad all that crap came out and now everything can only get better. Derek we haven't seen you in a while (same with you Casey : ( ) Dan I can't wait for the next 2 weekends to pass so that we can soon go to the trailor I really need to get away from here. I don't know what to do anymore
Later everyone Love you tons!
(S)Brooke(S)I just want someone to love(L)I hope its who I think it is(K)

Don't worry Diana, i bet im a worse speller then you and everyone here knows it :P so your not alone. Sitting here in computers class bored outa my mind im not gonna go to second again to day, damn wisemen FAILING ME ILL KILLL HIM lol or just egg his house, right casey. tired tired tired tired tired shouldn't be up yet damn, have to work today so if anyone calls me between 4 and 11 ill be at work so call my cell and leave a message and ill call u on my break or lunch or whatever. for thoes of you who forgot it its 289-314-3727 so ya sorry that whole come over to my house to watch jackass didn't work... AGAIN damn sister in basement damn fatass friend who smells like... like... well shit lol damn well stunk up my basment, even my laundry smelt better then that basement when i brought it down lol. ok well i guess i better do this pseudo code thats due today bah ok im off this later all and dont' forget have a nice day :)

Hey!!
one more thing that whole time thing is totally wrong alright!
peace

Hey everyone!!
what's goin on??
well i hope everyone is doing pretty good, oh don't worry about not calling brooke i figured u would not anyways so don't worry not mad or anything alright. :) and lesile it's totally cool alright we are cool just hate when people do that shit cause i even said "can not spell" oh well no worries, well hope u feel better. i am soooo tired from the heart and stroke fundation thing today at school we had sooooo much fun alright well i think i am going to go rollerblading now so talk to u all.
peace.
hugs :)

sorry diana i was just joking about the whole word thing ... i didnt mean to offend you .. and i didnt mean you didnt know the meaning ... just the spelling thats all

sleep ... sleep ... pain killers .... sleep sleep sleep ..... hmmmm interesting damn day for me ......damn being sick... dont think im gonna go to billiards today ... but i have to if i want to stay in that damn tournament ..... barg

what ever ... take it easy ..... call me

Hey Everybody!
Well Diana I haven't seen you in a while (2 days LOL) Sorry I couldnt call you yesterday but I was at my meeting until 7:30, and then I went straight to Dan's cause there was nothing to do at home but see Pete!!!! He called yesterday and my Dad yelled at him : S Ahhhhhh OMG!!!! Maybe he'll give up after a while, but he continues to ride his bike to my house and call constantly!!!FRIG!!! What else is new with you guys? Leslie I am not your hero LOL you did that all yourself babes! Diana you're a joker LOL fartuated! Anyways we need to talk because I had a really bad day today and I am so pissed off!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways this is short cause I have to work
Later guys!

Hey!!
what's going on?? class is almost done just finished my math project finally. umm well just wanted to say what are u talking about Lesile telling me i don't know what they mean i was typing fast and such and plus everyone else new what i was talking about so i guess u just had a promblem alright. got things on my mind don't need someone telling me shit that i do wrong ok, well everyone have a great day later, peace. hugs

alright. i was thinking of a way to keep our good buddy john in on the events that go on in ajax...thx to leslie for mentioning him...if noone minds, i would like to give john the site for the blog so that he can keep up with us, and know what we are talking about when we talk to him...for brooke and diana, john was my best friend, up until the time his mom moved him to ottawa in grade 6...we try to keep in touch but it doesnt work so well...anyways, if anyone has a problem with john reading these blogs just let me know and i wont give him the site, otherwise i will give it to him.
talk to ya later

P.S. u will get to meet him...he is coming down with his bro stew for a couple of weeks around the concert date, so we will introduce him then.

Here we are in computers class again, and this time i wonder if i'm gonna get busted for missing 3 periods yesterday. I think i have decided on what i'm buying at the Metallica concert, i'm gonna buy a full back, black LP hat, and a black LP hoddie, and i think thats gonna cost me at least areound 50 to 70 bucks. Remember thats at least. Anyways what do you all think of the faint video, derek thought it was pretty low budget, we watched this morning without sound in computers class. And brooke i need to talk to you. Anyways i cant wait to go to the concert, and leslie you still owe me $100.25 for the ticket, you give me that money and i'll give you the ticket, otherwise i sell it to someone else, dont know who yet, but however wants to buy it can have it. Anyone know if disturbed is gonna be in toronto in any of their upcoming tours? cuz this time i'm going with you guys. And brooke i'm so exicted about our job. Its great. and even some times i get to work with you, it might be in the mornings or it might be the after hours, we'll have to see when i get a schedual. And as for that lock up night at my triailor i think we can get away with diana going up with rob, see the way it works is that the preson you register as a vistor has to stay at that same persons trailor, so diana would have to stay at robs trailor, cuz she is his visitor, but i think we can get away with that if brooke and diana are in my tent. Now as for the rest of you, its not gonna work, its too many people plus, the people i hang around with are gonna be bringing guest up as well so we cant get you guys cover. Sorry, dont worry, we'll stay in ajax and throw an all nighter, its not like we already dont anyways. Oh this weekend my place saturday night, matt and derek you will have to come over after work, i'll give matt a key, and i'll pick up derek. If they take the car key then matt will have to pick up derek on his way home from work, everyone else i will fiqure a way to get you there. Friday night or saturday night i'm going to the movies with kathleen, and then we'll do shit afterwards, friday night my place is a no go, cuz my dad comes back saturday morning so i dont want anybody being caught at my house when your not supposed to be there. Anyways i'm off for now, i'll talk to you all later, time to get back to work. cya.

in computers class and i want to go back to sleep but then what els is new lol. glad things worked out for you leslie and my entire house smelt of butain after you guys left lol, work was slow so i spent most of the time in the back talked to my manager (making up questoins and getting paid for it is good) ya well i don't have anything els to post lol so have a good day everyone later

Well it settled .... Brooke is my hero and i am in debt to her for her helping me through this garbage
She might think it was me that helped my self ... but it was mainly her that helped me .. along with all the people that i involved as well
I can see you n i having a good friendship babe ... seems to me that all the friends that ive kept seem to have had some kind of rocky start or chapter and this sure ranks up with the biggest of rocks
look forward to seeing you later today for the damn billiards tournament which i think ill throw .. just so that i dont have to continue with it but we'll see
diana .... do us a huge favour please ?
lol ...... perhaps not use words that you arent to sure about cause im sure that infatuated and fartuated differ massively ;P lol
dont worry bout it though we all make mistakes ..... words are funny when people fumble with them lol
so mayhaps we should introduce diana to john ..... have a word off .. see whos better at mixing words with other words .... right matt? lol
brooke my old man sending that damn camera in today ... i got them to get doubles so that you get one of everything to ....... not sure if thats what you wanted but HA ... means i get pics of you ....... muhahahahaha >:]
take it easy all .... i think im gonna pass out again ..... get my ass some real sleep lol

later

Everyone do as this post says. First off click here then scroll down until you find the link for faint, then click on that, and let it load. Its the new linkin park music video for the song faint. Enjoy, i liked it.

Hey!!

damn Lesile u posted a hell lot of things on here, wow, well in math class again doing the same project,
brooke i sooo can back u up the the whole guy not trusting thing, well also i look at it like this, we are all young no one truly knows what they want we all act like some one we aren't cause we are trying to figure out who we are, so u hurt people by breaking there hurts or something, no i really don't care what any guys says they all lie some point in the relationship i really dont care i have met very sweet guys but they even said they do i mean u can't always be soo happy and perfect and, why because god made us like this he made us want to have heart breaks and cry and just thing that the world is the worst thing of all, but really it's the best thing of all, we become stronger and wiser to know ourselfs and other people to, so
never play with "LOVE" it's the strongest word in the world if u truly love someone so much that u would give them the world and die for them then that's "LOVE". people thing it's something else like they are sooo perfect and mean everything and such but nope that just means ur fartuated for them. ( can not spell) so for everyone thing twice before u say that u love someone or truly care for them k, thanks :)

well me i am doing alright could be sooo much better just the fact that exams are next week and such and other things, so everyone enjoy life, take each day like there's no tomorrow,
alright talk to u all later, peace
love u all,
*HUGS*
~*~ Twisted Angel~*~

WOOT FUN DAY!!! translation im not going to class and you bastards better show up for soccer and no dan you can't go to sleep you lazy bitch lol. yes i see you playing lemonade stand in computers class... well i hope i can see it your sitting next to me. it only took me like 20 min to read all the posts since last one so damn lol to much reading for me. ok lets see in responce brooke i know lots of guys that don't lie, some of which post on this blogg so all guys are not pricks.... just most of them lol (i could say the same thing about women tho so they arn't saints either). leslie you arn't gonna get rid of your friends that easy, i may be speaking for myself but from the looks of it everyone els feels the same way. lets see who have i missed lets look at the posts.. leslie leslie leslie leslie leslie leslie leslie, dan, matt and brook.... ok matt im confused to so your not alone.. dan well dans dan so ha lol ok well im gonna have fun not going to class today.... but im in computers right now GOD DAMNIT... ohh well im posting instead of working so its all good. last night was well painfull, matt thanks for sacking me with a shuvel 2 times, and well i gota get you back for 1 i did sack you with a golf ball, and ha i found out casey dosn't punch back hehe he will just look at you odd. and yes i soaked laura cuz i couldn't hit her back after she bruatally asulted me lol didn't hurt but was funny as hell but i did get a water bottle square in the throat kinda knoced the wind outa me (why i soaked her lol) ok well class is over in 10 min so ill make the rest short. *clears throat* Those who can forget are lost forever. don't forget the past just learn from it..... damn that sounded good didn't it lol........ learn to trust your friends because when push comes to shuve they are the ones who are gonna back you up... new friends are like money easily made easily lost, so take that money and put it into bonds ... lol that ones odd but ohh well im being creative im useing my head lol..

oh i almost forgot one thing to tell a few people that i might have not told......
sunday night i was refilling my lighter with a can of butane ...
and didnt realize that it had filled the lighter to the brim and was leakin everywhere ...
now those of you that have seen my room
know its fucking tiny >:| ... and a lot of spilled butane (enough to make my pants start to get wet) cant be a good thing right?
well try lighting the shit up cause you think you should clear your room ....
BAD FUCKING IDEA ......
my legs ... my bed ... my upper body was on fire for at least 5 seconds .... and in fire time ... its long lol
its was fucking awesome .... but ill never do it again .. unless there is a camera...
dont worry its just minor burns .. i didnt even realize i have them till now .. got me through my pants lol .. and my bed sheets a little crispy .. but meh still jokes though

talk to ya all later ....... w00000000t 7 consecutive posts lol ... ill stop now

well brooke ... i look forward to you getting to know the real me ... seems to me that alot of people actually like me ... alot more then i thought
yeah i have to warm you .. i am agressive ... its just my nature ... i fool around alot ... but i try my hardest not to hurt ... alot ... lol j/k
with the accpetin to people with the name derek ... that annoy the hell outa me lol j/k j/k
well i dunno what the hell to say now so im gonna shut the hell up ... considering i just posted more times in the past few hours then some poeple have posted since this damn blog started ......

take it easy all .. im gonna try

alright well on a more positive note ... 3 hours of walking did nothing to my foot .. i think all the good times ive had recently . and the good mood id been in before this week ...have made me heal a little faster then normal cause this weekend at the cottage when i cracked the shit outa my foot ..... it felt really fucking good .... i hadnt felt my ankle snap so hard in months and it was fucking releaving ... i left the brace off all damn day .... which also hasnt happened in months
soon enough people soon enough ....my lazy ass is gonna really start running .. not just for the hell of it either .... ill be doing my circuits and all the shit ... total body work out ..... gonna be fucknig awesome . this outa shape shit because of a foot shit ... aint working for me so anyone that wants to join me .... its gonna hurt lol ... but a little pain now n then ... (dont say never hurt) .... uh .... isnt bad? ... when its for a good cause at least
matty its gonne be u n me ... we gotta get back in shape dude .... i cant feel my abs anymore :S:S ... how do you lose 8 peices of your body so damn easily???? bah ....
brooke and diana .. as long as you'd still like me to ... US ... to .... we can still teach yas how to play pool .. as long as your still interested in it . after this tournament i realized how good i really can be ... and i want to teach yas both .it could be a blast
thurday though ... is the damn near last day for the tourny to ... i have to face steph .... and she has never beaten me before ... so we shall see .. then BAILEY ... lol
that brown bastard is going down!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then it'll be me n tyler again for finals and i swear im gonna kill his small white ass on that table ...... GRRRRRRR hehe cant beleive i played so shitty today
i do have to say that the reactions of today really stirred me . and that that is the sole premiss on why i lost to tyler ... bastage one god damn ball left ARGGGG hehe
at least i know i earned my loss ... but wont let it happen again ... from now on people i aint going easy while playing that game ... so watch it >:)

you know what .... fuck that
im not fucking sorry people had to meet me .... considering brooke just said that she's known me 3 weeks and all she knows is lies .... then bah fucking humbug
you really dont know me then ........
and this had better not sour it cause im truely not like this
i garauntee it ..... i hate poeple that lie ..... and yes that means i hate my self
but as EVERYONE has done .... im going to have to forgive myself ..... not now ... but it will have to happen some time ..... im the only person left to forgive me ... which is trippy . but what ever
im truely sorry you all got entangled in my lies ... they may have been from long before i met you brooke ..... but they still managed to affect you .... which im gonna have to live with
ill call you tomorow .... and talk to you about the billiards today ... which sucked ass .. but boo fucking hoo i didnt really want it if i lost
so too bad
ill make htis up to everyone .... some how ... ill earn the lost trust back
next time i even think about lieing im gonna punch my self in the face and remember these fucking feeling that i have now and i swear ... to all that read this ... and those unable to that were involved with my shit ... i swear if i ever allow anything like this to happen again ... im gonna search for help ... cause this is all gonna lead to lunasism ...even for someone strong minded like me
i apologize once again for disgracing all the people that i have ... please do forgive me i really dunno what id do without my friends . and i know sunts like these push them away ... which is one hell of a reason to never do it again .. and ill act on this from here out
...

what ever take it easy all .. i know i cant

im not gonna try and justify it ... it was total idiocy that i did it and im gonna beat the shit outa my self for it. Still the part where noone cares .... is fucking wierd
i let you people beleive something that never happened .. then because of those beleifs ... another beleif towards me smashing windows (which spawned from misunderstood words) was also turned into a lie that hindered me
i dont know who i told that i felt like smashing 6 windows on 6cars that i hated , then woulda had to run from the 4 security guards in front of future shop .... but they twisted my words ...... and i never knew that the lie was going around until it came back to me ... and then it just so happened to be a person that feared me from it that told me about it .. a person that i didnt want fearing me ... but what the hell everyone else i know is scared of me
im sorry you had to meet me brooke ....
everyone else to

ok walk time ..... ill behome around 12 maybe 1
im nearly not caring when i get home ..... odds are ill just walk to the lake .... perhaps get lost for a while

alrgiht people ... this is me leaving this blog for good ... cant seem to bring myself to any sort of peace on this one ....
i have disgraced charmaine and most assuredly disgraced brooke by letting this shit further her distrust in men ... which is total bullshit
this is safely the first lie i have ever let on ... and im gonna damn near kill my self for it
dont worry . makes no difference to me my lifes shit anyways
im sorry i included everyone in such idiocy ... i dunno how to deal with this so im just gonna go on a long walk and do alot of thinking
i havent slept on eaten in a while again ... but too fucking bad its a small punishment but meh
as for now on my ankle brace no longer exists ... im fucking tired of it ..
i gotta get a grasp on things cause the part where only i give a god damn about what i did is really freakin me out .. i lied to my only friends and let them tell the lies to a girl that has trust issues .. and just for a twist had that girl bust me on it after only knowing me for a short period of time
im sorry brooke but that really isnt me ... all the chances ive had ... thats safely the only lie ive made

ok so i'm confused, brooke what did you do last night. And brooke is melissa the one that was at prom, bryan's ex? Anyways brooke i might not be going up it all depends if christina is going up, and if she isn't then i'm staying here, and i'm gonna see a movei with kathleen either on fridya or saturday. i'll have to see. Anyways i dont know what the hell i'm doing online, i think i came on to check if christina was online but she isn't so i think i'm get off now. Anyways brooke let me know how shit went at robs place today, when you get back. anyways cya

who is this melissa?...what did leslie say?...now im confused...
as for what u told me today les...im not really disappointed...u were more lying to urself than anyone else...so u have to get over it...the only person u betrayed was urself...and that is alot worse than anyone else in the entire world...before u can be honest to other ppl...u must be honest to urself...
also brooke...u must learn that some guys are trust worthy...u just havent found the right one yet...ull know when u find him.

Hey Guys!
What's up? Well yesterday was a very interesting day LOL. Leslie I guess you dissapointed me because of what you said to Melissa, and it brought a lot of truth to the stories that I have heard. I don't trust guys, and no one can really prove to me that I should, I have no reason too. This made my statement true however that all guys lie, and Diana can back me up on this one. I have only known you for 2 or 3 weeks and everything I've heard pretty much is a lie. Anyways people make mistakes and we move on from them, so I don't honestly care anymore I let all the bull shit dissapear. We will all chill soon for sure! Matt if you want after Diana and I have finished our run we may be able to go out somewhere just give us a call k? Last night was AWESOME!!!!! Diana I love you, and you love me because I got you guys at least talking, you;re unblocked : ) I love ROB!!!!!Just joking but last night was really awesome I wish you hadnt gone home though cause we had more fun at my house afterwords, maybe we can get ahold of them tonight and makes plans. We'll se there are lotsa things that we can do. I am so bored today was a short day cause we had a fun fair and only had 40 min classes this afternoon. I can't bring anyone to the wedding thing friday and i am pissed cause it's going to be so dam boring!!! Im going to ask my mom though cause this sucks ass maybe I could leave early but it may be far so that would not help at all. But anyways Saturday and Sunday we will make plans for sure k? Dan's gone to the trailor without me : ( but thats okay I'm quitting soon so we can go up all the time k?
Love ya guys later Babes!

Hey Everyone!!
what's going on??

well with me nothing much just in math class doing a project sooooo boring oh well at least i am passing i am happy!!! well i hope everyone's day is going ok, and glad to hear that ur guys Prom went good i heard alot about and the after party to hehe that's wicked. a banner that would be kinda cool we should make this more girly like pink and flowers hehe that would be hype hehe i know "not even" hehe :) Hey brookey what's up?? thanks for calling loser hehe just jk hehe, i know u love me cause of last night aww i am sooooooo great!!! i ROCK!!! and thanks for u know talking to that retrad hehe, and don't stress over guys, they are soooo not worth it, no affanse to any u guys hehe,
yes we are going running tonight that should be run hehe, well guys don't stress over stupidness just enjoy ur life and remember ur to young to be with just one person, :)
alright well guys i better go start my project i would rather not but exams next week so i need to pass AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH no exams can't handle it, yes summer in 3 weeks or less can not wait,
k i am leaving now peace to all of u,
love u all,
*hugs*

ill get working on the banner when i feel like makeing one.. and i hope u know how to use flash cuz thats what im gonna make it in :P or if you prefer i could make a regular pic that won't do much....

on other news i have an add on to my title "Perma Drunk" i am now the "Neutral Perma Drunk" WOOT lol

also if anyone wants to do anything this week just let me know...cause i want to get out of the house...so just gimme a call.

well i know this weekend was gunna be shit from the moment casey called my house from my cottage...i dont know why but i had a feeling.
that is why i didnt want to continue drinking on fri...it had nothing to do with driving the next day...i just said that to keep questions to a minimum...although my shoulder really did hurt.
as for sat night i wasnt in the mood to drink...so i didnt...i had 2 drinks in the afternoon but then felt tired and went to bed...woke up a little later...by that fag chris...so i went to sleep in the other room...then that bitch woke me up again and i couldnt sleep anymore, and i didnt feel like drinking so i sorta kept to myself and was really antisocial to everyone...then on sun night when i actually felt like drinking casey didnt and everyone else had to go home so that night was a bust...then we had to clean up and come home. so this weekend really sucked.
im glad to hear that u had fun (brooke and dan) cause i sure as hell didnt...maybe next weekend, even though i have to work.

P.S. Brooke, i know u wanted to start a conversation on fri night about one of my previous posts...and i was very vague...so if u want to continue just msg me on msn, and ill explain there.

Well, it's surprisingly good to be back in Ajax. I guess the weekend wasn't as fun as I had hoped. First off, we didnt "break in" to the cottage. Chris climbed in an open window. As for answering the phone...fuck off I'll do all the stupid things I want. And when I do something stupid I know its stupid and regret it. I dont need everyone telling me it was stupid. Matts the only one with the right to bitch at me for this one, anyone else can mind their own business. And Dan, I have no idea what you mean by swearing at Matt's uncle. I certainly did not swear at his uncle. I don't swear much as it is and I especially wouldnt swear to any adults except my own parents. Well, I stole a stop sign and a wooden reindeer in one night. I think when I'm not getting the things I desire in life I get the urge to take things. Things that I dont even want. Just to compinsate on a psychological level for the things I'm not getting. The weekend had its highlights. Chasing cows was certainly an interesting experience. And Charles pushing me off the dock was actually kinda fun (except for the wet shoes and $50 of soggy cash). The waters a lot warmer when your fully clothed.

here is part two to this mornings post. HAHA derek i posted one second after you. anyways kathleen is that girl from the pool club, and now i have to make a decision between a kathleen(who lives in ajax) or christina(who lives in markham). I really dont know what to do. I think i'm going out with christina right now but i dont know cuz i have no idea what she said this weekend. So i have to ask her if we are or aren't, and i told kathleen i would finally call her tonight. guys what should i do. Wow A&W root beer is so easy to chug. anyways, our soccer game for tomorrow has been cancelled, due to the field being flooded. o well what can you do, our next game is next week at lakeside, it starts at 6:30 i think, cuz coach wants us there at 6:15. and its against the other ajax team. They used to be the team from pickering village. Any of you guys are invited to come and watch if you wish, i think brooke you might know some of them seeing as how you live in pickering village and all. Anyways i'm gonna go get something to eat, so cya. Oh and derek get working on that new banner for this site.

Hey Hey Everyone! I haven't written on here in a while, and wow this blog is going to be a lengthy one, (if you get bored stop reading). Prom was absolutely amazing : ) I am so glad that all of you went. The place was beautiful, the girls all looked gorgeous and dam you guys looked sexy! The dancing was a blast (don't worry Dan you cought on and can definitely dance)! Although after that night I was kind of depressed that I no longer can win prom king and queen and wish I'd had a bf there with me and Dan had a gf cause it seemed to make others nights more special. I hope that by the time my prom rolls around I have someone that I love to spend the night with me. Drinking at Matts was great! Thanks for staying home with us Matt we had an awesome time getting platered and dancing around. Sorry about your friends breaking into the cottage, I can understand your e-mail now, I just hope your Uncle still lets you guys go up there again. Who's Kathleen??? Derek that sucks about your work but at last you made some money because it sounds like most of the cottagers had a sucky weekend. Well Dan and I had a fucking kick ass weekend!!!!! Yes Dan I will go up there with you any weekend that you invite me cause it was sooooooo fun up there!!!!! We got to have some drinks at dinner (too many for you, you dam drunk LOL) and then I got to meet all of your friends who were very nice, and extremely funny. I'm giving 2 weeks notice this weekend so we can go up whenever you want to k? Yea for sure you have to talk to her, but Alfie seemed quite upset and it doesnt look like he's going to give you her e-mail any time soon. But dont worry you'll find out next weekend ( I wish I was going up with you) Yea about me and Rob I have no idea I'm quite confused. What do you think I should do? Did you get any imression from him? You can find out for me next weekend when I'm not there k? All I know is that I had so much fun and he's a cuttie he said he'd be my bf (jokingly) and then we were joking about going to prom, and the fact that we broke up over something so stupid. Anyways we'll have to talk about all of that later cause its confusing but Christina really seemed to like you so I think that it will all work ut and then all of us can patry up there and I will have someone to dance with too and spend lock up night with : ) I really need a CD made for me Dan..... If i give you 5-10 bucks could you make me 2 CD's? I need an old song one cause there cute, and then a party mix that I have lists for k?
Anyways I'm in computers and dont worry I got my project done k?
Lve you alllllll soo much
Kisses and Hugs
p.s. I really miss my bestest buddy Diana I want her to come to the trailor one time and she can hook up with Alfie and then he wont be sad and she'll be really happy hehehhehehhehe awesome (and my mom wnt let me come over tonight cause I gotta clean my room, and finish my hmk : ( but she said if I get it done we can get together later k? LOve you hun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Later everyone!

Hey hey, just sitting here in computers class, i completely forgot that i had shit due today, but that doesn't matter got it dont in class, its all good. man today feels so long, well leslie its good to see that your back but its bad to hear that you had a shit weekend, i had a good one. Liz said that she didn't have that much fun either, i hope there are some stupid stories to be told and not just of chris. Anyways i'll finsih this later today.

Immmmm sitting with a tin can, high above the riverway. i don't know why im singing this song.. AHHHH
well ya im in computers class bored outa my mind dan is next to me (he looks a little to happy for my liking) i don't know whether to be scared or more scared lol. well ya work went by so slow on saturday 5 min felt like an hour and a half some bastard ordered 31 fucking fish and he wanted specific ones!!! i almost used the excuse "Im not in this department" but ya bloody hell lol. when i got back from work i finished off my 26er and yess leslie it does taste bad strait, i also finished off my little drinks. and sorry your weekend sucked but at least you weren't working you bastard :P lol ya im bored and running out of things to say but i want a long post so thoes of you who don't want to waist your time STOP READING NOW! well ya i beat my cousin up on sunday... he is 5 years younger then me but so what he started it and i ended it by hanging him by his underwear in my parants closet and shutting the door.... what?.... he deserved it! so ya its 10:04 and well ya. i need more booze, and ya and ya and blah blah blah god damn i need a more interesting life. well bells about to ring so bye bye

well my weekend sucked ........ i dunno about any one else ..... doing nothing but listening to much and playing with fire can be done anywhere .... i dunno what the hell is so special about changing the scenary i mean god fucking damn it ...... no boat .. no sky god damn clouds ... 4 people missing ...

sure we had fireworks and watched chris drunkenly laugh at his self in the mirror cause he was retarded but meh ....... we can do that anywhere as well .... from now on im gonna check the fucking weather and then make my decisions.
i realize now that from now on im gonna stick to my gut instinct ... i can sleep(yes i slept) ... eat ... and sing to music I DOWNLOADED at home ... i knew nothing was gonna happen this weekend
but meh
sure beats having parents breathing down my neck .... guess thats the only thing that matters

thank you Brooke for friday night ... im sure that even if i were sober ida had a blast watching you be drunk as you were .... but being drunk at the same time was great
im just actually suprised that that vodka got me drunk ... might not have got my plastered .... but holy shit did it make my breath stink lol .... guess that happens when you drink vodka straight and .... fast lol

well what ever .... this weekend wasnt as good as it was meant to be .... but bah too fucking bad for me eh .... ah well so long as everyone else enjoyed their prom and after party and weekend and such .... i really dont care how mine went


well boo hoo ...... lol

take it easy people i see yas when i see yas...... if i see yas .......

...........

ok regardless of going to the cottage or not i had a fucken great weekend, brooke you are so coming up every weekend, and i cant wait to get my car even if it is a truck, you and me, we'lll go up to my trailor every friday night after your done work, i'll pick you up and we'll go straight up. That was a good weekend, now comes the boring part of the week, the time at school but hey at least i got my friends here. I hope you all had fun at the cottage. I'm sure you've heard it enough but i have to say it, and casey i dont mean to harp on you but chris and laura aren't part of this blog so, dont take it as all at you. But you guys are dumbasses, first for breaking into the cottage, then for answering the phone after breaking in. Thats like saying "yeah i stole your car and i'm going to the police station." Thats how dumb that was. Oh and then swearing to his uncle, that just wasn't the smartest thing to do. Anyways on a good note i hope none of you are hurt. Oh and on a good but sad note, i have become and easier drunk. Two bottles of mikes hard and half of brookes TABU. Its sad really. But that means its cheaper. O well, it was a fun night, sorry brooke for not drinking around the fire, instead we drank during dinner with my parents just outside. That was fun. Remind me i really to talk to christina, brooke i need to know whats going on, and i'm sure you would like to know as well. Plus i want to know what the story is with you and rob. I just hope alfie gives me her email, i dont think he will, cuz i think hes mad. But thats his fault he had his chance last year and she doesn't like him anymore so meh. Oh and leslie, right now you "dun-no" what i'm talking about but i'll fill you guys in later. And leslie i'll need to talk to you about kathleen. Cuz now i have a situation that needs some sorting. Sorry about the "dun-no" think it was just so funny when you said that. And oh man brooke watching the Extreme Elimanation Challenge after a couple of drinks was so funny. Anyways i'll talk to you all later, and brooke if your reading this and you haven't finished that math project i'll be mad. Cya, Oh and derek let me know when you come up with a good looking banner for the site for this blog.

well last night wasn't so bad, prom was pretty good i got to dance with the people i wanted to dance with, i think with the exceptence of one person but we wont go into those details. anyways brooke i cant thank you enoough for making me go we had such a good time. The other half of the night, the one that consisted of everything after 1:00 was pretty great too. I realized how much of a cheap drunk i am, i only had four glasses. Well i remeber most of the night with the exception of derek almost slapping me in the face and waking me up. That folks i do not remeber. Meh what can you do. Matt thanks for staying back to drink with us. I'm sure you had fun, but it did kinda suck that you had to get some sleep cuz you had to drive to the cottage early this morning. Yes its 8 in the morning and everyone here is running on 1 hour of sleep. maybe a little more for some people, buts its all around one hour of sleep for everyone. supposedly i pured myself another drink out of dereks vodka, that i also dont remeber seeing as how i stopped drinking afteri finish the remaining bit of peach snapps from my 26er. When i woke up this morning there was a drink in the cup i was using of, its supposedly mine but i dont think it is. I know i dont have much of a leg to stand on cuz you guys just say i was drunk. Arrggggg someone get rid of this piece of shit keyboard that matt has its driving me nuts, those that have seen it will understand. anyways i'm off for now havea good weekend. Brooke and i are heading up to my trailor today and i know matt and leslie and liz are going to join those fuck heads that are already up at matts cottage. What jackasses breaking into matts cottage. cya

fuck matt, fuck leslie, dont let me and brooke ruin it for you guys, i am telling you both right now, you guys are going up and your gonna have fun, i'm quite pissed as is cuz i cant go, but dont get me more pissed by letting me and brooke ruin your guys weekend. so just shut the fuck up and go and have fun.

i must say that this fuckin weekend has gone all to fuckin shit...and its all because of fuckin parents...i was told that a reason brooke and dan cant go is cause we will be driving at night...so i talked to my mom and it turns out that she doesnt even fuckin trust me to drive and night...but she has no fuckin power to stop me so she doesnt try...i dont think ill be able to enjoy myself as it stands now but i will go...ill be in no mood to drink...but i will go so other ppl can.

lol ok dude i can fill you in on the water idea ..... it was conjured up during dinner and absolutely MUST be done ....... we get a FUCK LOAD OF PEOPLE and bring all our asses into a restaurnat .... everyone gets menus ..... we wait til lthe waiter come sby a few times . never knowing what we want .. and then once everyone has water we all just drink it then up and leave ......

fucking jokes
the faces that'll be made .... but we gotta do it at kelseys . cause they suck and are damn expensive lol

so muahahahahaha
water indeed

BROOKE CALL ME ARRRRRRRRRRG
TIME IS IRREVELANT .... i said that didnt i?


ell bah

take it easy all

I'm in a good mood so i leave you with this quote from "Meaning Of Life" by "Distrubed"

Need to get psycho / wanna hear you say it / say, you want it, need it / Don't wanna wait until we finish the show / It's not enough, you hunger for more / You're one twisted little fuck / And now you wanna get psycho with me

dude do you honestly thought i threw the game to you, i mean do you think i wanted to play bailey. And besides look at how good i was doing against bailey. i almost won two games to him. I won one and we were both on the eight on the 4 game and i fucked up my shot other wise we would have gone into a game 5 and i might have beaten him there. he told me i had skill but that might have been to make me feel better. Anyways leslie, i do see how you can be mad that you didn't win legitimately in both serious but i did play the best against you that i could i almost had you beat. But that doesn't matter now cuz, i lost to bailey, but i am glad that i beat kathleen cuz i won our little wager. For those of you that dont know, i wagered her that if i won we had to go to the movies, and guess what i won. so yeah for me. anyways my mom isn't too happy about going up after prom cuz its late and its gonna be raining. Anyways that will pass, my dad thinks its not a good idea cuz booze will be involved, he thinks we are gonna drink at prom, haha little does he know. Its gonna drunk after prom once we get up to matts cottage. Hehe, should be fun. anyways leslie i hope you feel better, and brooke i hope you feel alittle bit better today too. Brooke give me a call, cuz i have been trying to get ahold of you all day but i cant seem to get through. anyways cya. Oh PS what is this water idea, i hope it has nothing to do with me, especially if i'm at the bad end. talk to all later.

well today was a waste of life ....... if i ever have a day like this again im gonna fucking shoot myself .......

but then again .. whats the fucking differnece

Hey Everyone!
Diana whats up babes? I haven't seen you in a while : ( I was pissed about yesterday cause I wanted to come out with you guys and go Bike riding, but I had to stay and do my project. Kristina called and said she'd be there in a half an hour and she never even showed up! At 8:00 I got pissed off and said fuck it, our project is never going to get done, so now I pretty much am doing it on my own. We went for dinner but it was at like 9:30 so don't worry I didn't ditch you ( I would never do that) I finally met Laura yesterday and she was really nice! She's a really preety girl, and dinner was jokes! One time we should actually follow thrugh with the water idea though LOL! I can't wait to go to the cottage but my mom needs to be convinced, and the only person she can be convinced by she says "IS DANS MOM." If she feels its okay with her, then I'm actually allowed to go, so make sure that shes pursuasive!!!!!!! Prom is tommorow and I'm so nervous but excited! Yes Dan were going to have a blast! Leslie we'll see you when we get back but you can't see the dress unless Matt comes and gets you, cause I have to change if I'm going to the cottage.

Matt : Whats wrong hun? Your message sounded quite serious and depressing. You should have friends that you can trust because friendship is based on trust. For all those who did something..........APOLOGIZE DAM YOU!!!!! And for those of you who didnt make sure that Matt can keep your trust. : )

I had the worst day yesterday until we all went to Kelseys! I got in a fight with five black girls, and then to top off the day my mom bitched about the cottage and I got fllowed hom by a 21 year old guy that now knows where I live, but he didnt get my # I have his : ) LOL someones not getting called LOL

Well talk to you all tonight and Dan I will call you and my mom will talk to your mom after I go tanning at 6:00 K HUN? LOve you all lots and DIANA I will call you too k?
Later Everybody!

Hey Everyone!!!
what's going on??
well i am in math class trying to do a project boo that hehe, well i hope everyone is doing alright, well have a great time at PROM everyone!!! and at the cottage well i am bored sooo confused of what's going on with these texts things cause it says something like brooke went out for dinner and laura was there soooo confused cause i thought she had hm to not be able to come out with me whatever tooooo confused, oh well, well have a great weekend talk to u all later,
peace,
love you guys all, hugs

so someone want to tell me whats going on and how last nights dinner went with laura and brooke at the same place? And i am going to matts cottage so i need to know what the hell is going on. and brooke you need to call me today, i need to talk to you and ask you some shit.

Well thats great im late for school lol meh ohh well ill go for lunch.... IM GONNA PULL A MATTT SWEEEEEEET lol just kidding. and about the previous posts made athat had my name mentioned, i don't have a problem driving people around so your very welcome, sorry for not being myself at the fireworks my dad had pissed me off but anyways ill deal with that. well anyways im off to school later everyone.

There is something i have to say...but i am having a hard time actually saying it...because it hurts me to even think it...but it must be said, so here it goes
Within the past few hours, i have been having trouble sleeping...so i have had time to think through what is going on in my head...and here is a small, but sufficient taste of what that is for everyone and anyone who is not involve...anyone who is however, or thinks they are, will have to come to me either on msn or in person to find out for sure.

I feel that in the past few weeks, many people that I have confided my trust in have betrayed me. These people may know who they are and they may not, but that is neither here nor there. The fact is that in my mind I have been betrayed and that needs to be resolved. Some of these people have very good reasons to betray my trust for I have done something to them first, and I apoligize for that, but for others I can see no reasoning to it and that only frustrates me further. Due to this fact, I will find it difficult to confide my trust in anyone anymore...and to those who are not involved, I apoligize, but it is the way it must be...for me. The reason this idea hurts me so, is in the past I have done all I can to help people out in their time of need, regardless to the reasons they are there, and regardless of what I may be doing or planning on doing during that time. For example I have made an extra trip out to Oshawa for people, when I wasnt even planning on going...but I made the time, because as a friend I felt that it was my responsiblity to help in anyway I can...but resently I have discovered that I may have been mistaken...so that all will change...and I'm not going to go out of my way for anyone except me...because otherwise I leave myself open to get hurt...and I dont like that.

Anyways...in conclusion, if you wish to know if you are involve, you must talk to me, and for those who have questions I will answer them, but you must talk to me...and also there are others who do not have the ability to read this blog, and that is something that I must deal with...so I hope noone discusses this with them...so now is my time to leave and make another attempt to get some sleep, so I good you bid evening...........

thoughts ..... thoughts ...... hmmmm

still cant sleep ...... or even eat ....... i think something might actaully be wrong with me .....ill figure something out some time soon ...id laugh if i cant sleep cause i havent eaten lol
meh
well people lets see what happens tomorow ..... so far ive had 6 good days in a row ... and that has never happened before ...... it started thursday .. got better friday ... kicked ass saturday ;) ... rocked sunday ... monday was great ... today was good ... tomorow better be good to or ill be mad
well either way ...people enjoy prom .... i aint gonna be there ... i think ill sleep .. if i can
dan .... thursday ...... your going down ..... make sure brooke is there to see me kick your ass to eh ..... hehe cause im gonna play you all out ..... i aint holding back .... 2 ball handy cap or not im gonna kill your german ass on that pool table ... tis gonna be kewl .... for me at least .. you might cry .... ill be fine >:)

well till i see you peoples again ... take it easy

Hey Everyone!!
what's going on??
my god i am soooooo tried but it was sooo worth it, had sooo much fun this weekend, u guys are great to hangout with pre jokes hehe, yesterday was soo much fun walking around, chillin in the park hehe my arms still hurt from that werid thing hehe, :) lots of fun walkin and trying to play soccer hehe. the fireworks were pretty good fun with friends, just sucks that it's the same as when i was little oh well, life hehe, well thank u derek soooooooooo much for driving us, :) and thank u matt to for driving us home, :) aww brooke don't worry about pete he's being a loser, just have fun remember what we said :) ya ya boys!!!!
yes summer is coming soooooo soon can not wait. aww poor dan about the fire works hope ur ok hun, kyle soooo sweet aww :)
well guys have a great time at prom i know u will cause prom kicks ass!!! and also have a great weekend.
talk to u all later,
peace,
love u all, hugs,

Hey Everyone! I'm in Math class yet again do absolutely nothing! Maybe its because I am so god dam tired! LOL It was well worth it though: ) Fireworks were pretty cool, except for the fact that they almost killed Dan : ( The wedding reception was awesome, our BBQ and pool was a lot of fun and proved to be very interesting! Fireworks and our walks along the lake topped off the entire weekend, and made it one of the best weekends of my life! I am so pissed that my friends came all the way down and fireworks were canceled though ergh! Kristina says that she walked all the way to liverpool (sitting beside me) and broke her toe LOL BASTARD PETE!!!!!!!! Anyways your friend is definitely a stalker but whatever! Kyle was really cool, and we hope to chill with him again soon! Thanks so much Derek for driving us around this weekend, we had a blast with you guys! I cant wait for PROM! Yes Dan we are going to get so many pictures! Awwwww then when we get married we can show everyone our pics! JUST JOKING!
We are going to have MAD parties allllll weekend! I have the weekend off so we better have a party and get reallllly drunk everyday! Well I better try and do my project now so Ill talk to you all later! Love you all tons! HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!Later!
Brooke

why is it that after any good time i have ... i can never sleep .... unless i pass out from alcoholism .....

hmmmmmmm...
interesting

well brooke ... i have to say that you made my weekend .. sure wouldnt have been the same with out you ..
saturday i wouldnt have gone ...
sunday woulda been all guys .... and then dan .... *shudders*
and today wouldnt have been nearly as interesting as it really was .... im just mad that i decided to hurt my self once again

sorry bout yellin in your ear at dereks "sister" .... "babboon whale combo" .... but when people start bitching at me just cause they think its kewl .... i get real defensive ...always have hated stupid people when it comes to shit like her

derek those fireworks blowed ... but rocked at the same time
..... im torn as to which was more predominant .. but meh what ever works

casey n matt .. ihope ur weekend was as fun as mine ...... i know i had hella fun and hope that the going to matts cottage is half as good as this weekend ... cause i dont think i can have any better times then ive had recently ...... all thanks to brooke

well i havent eaten today .. and dont think i will ... but ill be sure to bring food to matts cottage if ..... i mean WHEN ..... we go so meh one day wont kill me........
ok time for painkillers ..... tomorow should prove interesting ... wonder if ill be able to even feels my hand ......we'll see

take it easy all

This whole weekend has been so amazing. Chris' cottage kicks ass. We have to go up there all the time now. Matt and I got up there in about 2 hours and 15 minutes so it wasn't too long a drive. Saturday night I didnt drink but Chris sure did. He drank half a 40 of jack daniels. Once the three of them were drunk we went over and chilled with the neighbours around their camp fire. Those guys are so cool. They don't have any electricity in their cottage and they shit in a bucket. They showed us this horn that they drink beer out of. It was so cool. They just pass the horn around the circle and drink out of it. I so want one. There was this older guy and his son Erik whose our age and one other older guy. Erik apparently has the hots for Chris' sister. Man what a pothead. He was checking out Laura the whole time. Sunday he took us over to some really high rocks accross the lake to jump off of into the water. Laura and I jumped once each but it was so unbelievably cold. We jumped from the lower rock which was about 15 feet or something. Erik jumped off the 30 foot one. Sunday night we got our own fire going and sat around it drinking. All except chris, who had enough the night before and didnt want to drink. We went through so much alcohol this weekend. Including chris' dad's beer and some of the neighbours beer. Well sunday laura passed out first. Not surprising considering she could barely stand without one of us supporting her. chris just stayed with her once she passed out. Matt and I drank till sunrise. It was real bright by the time I went inside. Let's see....what else was great?...oh ya....fireworks.....we bought $50 worth of fireworks in town. They were amazing. I swung on a tree while drunk and wrenched my knee. Hurts like hell. Chris rode a bike off a 5 foot drop (while sober) and landed on his head exactly as I said it would happen. We tried to talk him out of it but we should never have let him do it at all. He is lucky to be alive and not paralyzed. But he's okay and the whole weekend was a blast. I can't wait till next weekend. Cottages kick ass. It sucks to be back in Ajax.

alright well i had a blast ...... im not sure why i never posted .. considering i was up till 600 cause i had to feed the animals at that time .... and figured i wouldnt get up if i fell alseep at 4 when derek n kyle left.

well im glad noone stayed at my house .. that mighta been bad considering my dad walked in in the middle of the morning and started cleaning shit up lol
dont worry about that though ...... he doesnt care that we used the bbq just that we left a little mess ... but i got rid of that no problem

alrighg people ... bbq's MUST be had more often lol
that was fun at the table and everything with A) diana upstaging derek and B) derek falling over and such
alright people .. this has been the greatest weekend of my life ... lets just keep it going hehe
fireworks w0000000000000t
crash bang boooooooom
gonna be a ..........blast
talk to yas soon
take it easy

Hey Everyone, yes last night was soooo much fun! ehhehehehe we soooo can't play pool, but we'll get better : )Thanks for teaching us Leslie. I miss Dan : ( I hope he comes home soon : ) Yes Diana we're going to get good at pool, and then kick everyones ass when we play (yea right!) Thanks for hanging out with us guys we had a lot of fun, and thank you Derek for driving us home too. I really can't wait for Friday to come, PROM! Yes Dan we're getting tons of pics, and are going to have a blast! Yes after parties I dont have to go home hehehehe Dan don't worry about the cottage it will be MAD FUN!!!!!! hehehehe I will make sure you have a good time okay babes? I'll make sure that you arent sad or anything, because we have the entire weekend to drink and party and I'm actually allowed!!!! Only a 3 day schoool week thank god! Anyways I am so bored so I'll talk to you all later. hehehehehehehe yes Diana I knew you'd think he was hot lol! AWESOME!
Later guys!
LOVE Brooke !

Hey Guys!!!
what's going on??
well i just decided to come on here and post a message actually can write one cause ya hehe, whatever, Tonight was soooo much fun, thank u guys alot had a great time, pool was great yes me and u brooke kick ass all the away. the walks kicked ass hehe, sorry guys if i seemed like a bitch at some points. my god we soooo have to do this again, it kicked ass, u guys are all jokes hehe, all about the sex jokes hehe wow!! :) so glad that the bachelor picked the blonde girl she rocks, thanks for watching it with us hehe,
MY GOD KYLE is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Fucken SEXY!!!! and a really sweet guy soo cute aww :) hehe hope to see u again hehe :)

well i can not wait to chill with all u guys again
and thanks for driving me home so sweet means alot :)
love u guys all later,
peace, :) hugs

It's 3:00 on Sunday (afternoon) I would have posted but I was so drunk last night that I passed out as soon as I got up the stairs. Well Leslie I had an amazing night. I absolutely loved spending the night with you, and would gladly do it all over again. It wasn't painful at all (until my hangover kicked in) and I loved meeting everyone in your family. Your sister is awesome, she was so cool, and deserves better cause that guy didnt seem to appreciate what he had/has! We should definitely dance again some time, maybe partying after prom! You look so handsome in your outfit, I can't wait to see all of those pictures! Honestly this was one of the best nights of my life, and thank-you so much for making me a part of your evening. LOL Dan wont mind about the alcohol, but there was no need to be so nervous, I don't bite (unless asked) lol just joking : ) I love my roses, balloon, and floating candle dish that we stole, I mean... aquired hehehehe I hope I get to see you again soon, and tell your family I say thank-you so much, I really enoyed their company : ) YOUR PARENTS ARE SO CUTE!!!hehehehe We need the pics though cause I really want to show everyone how our night was Dan will laugh his ass off at some of the stories! To Matt and Casey I hope you had a lot of fun at Chris's cottage, and Dan at your trailor! Call me when you get back babes k? Well I g2g and make plans for the night! If anyone comes home early give me a call 905 426 8869 Love ya guys later!

its 328 and well babe, you made my night :D
i dont care what you think ........ drunk or not .... you WERE ... and ARe the most beautiful and gorgeous girl that was there that night
i dont wann eahr any arguement from you ........ soon as those lights hit your eyes .... i was lost and amazed in them jusr because of how beautiful and gorgeous you really ARE
never mind WERE ........ ARE ... all the member of my family kept asknig me ..... how i got such a beautiful girlfriend ....... well the girlfriend part might not have been so
accurate ...... but to the same respect ... you are a girl .... and are most assuredly my friend now ......
i thank you for being there tonight and i hope that the night wasnt all that painful

i especially enjoyed dancing with you ..... and beleive that it must be done again ... or else i might go insane hehe
i hope you wnjoy the flowers that i stole for yo u...... i mean aquired for you .....hehe
same goes for the balloons ....... i hope that you arent to drunk to go to work ..... and that i talk to you soon
to all those out there ...... take it easy ..... im about to pass out ........ the hard way just isnt worth it .....

talk to you all soon .......... im gonna dwell on this night for months ..... and be happy as long as i do dwell on it hehe
good night all

talk to you ALL soon

hehe

night

was to drunk to click post n publish ....... my bad lol
..... the words still stand though

Hummmm, i got my booze, and since everyone is going up to the cottage and leaving the few who stay ALONE YOU BASTARDS!!!!!! lol meh i would be going to if i didn't work at WALLIE MART lol. LESLIE POOL SUNDAY.... AND MONDAY lol ill call you when kyle gets here with detals so ya. we will have fun here while thoes bastards had to drive 2 and a half hours for it MUHAHAHAHAAHAHAH and they can't play pool up there another MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.... YES I HAVN"T DRANK ANY OF MY 26er YETTTTTT. but as matt declared last night im a PERMADRUNK WOOOOOOOOOOOT. ok people i have a head ach the size of pamala andersons tits so im going back to bed lattterz

omg dan ...... i feel like a fucking ass hole for doing this to you .......

but i drank my fucking mickey of peach schnapps .... took me 54 seconds ... but i got it down lol
im suprised though ..... it actually got me drunk for a bit .... and i think im still drunk right now .. noly thing is i cant see my fingers so i hope im typing this shit right ..... cause i dunno what the hell my words are ..... lol

i hope thjat learnning to type fasr has kept hteses words making sence

if not meh ..

forgive me sir but i needed some nerve calmage and i needed it pretty badly ........ i dont think ive ever been this nervous in my life .... but its for a good cause
brooke today will be a blast ....im sorry that i took me some booze to actually calm my nerves .. but thinking of sprending a day with someone as gorgeous as you ... is mind boggling .... and its off my scale of intensity .....

im just glad you agreed to join me ... or i know i would have a morbid day leading up to the sha bang .... and then a horrible fight filled night .... at the recwpetion itself
be as nervous as you must ... mine might subside ... after i sober up i assume .. cause right now i seem to be normal .... just drunk .... thats all

alright welll . im not going to touch my drawing book cause i know that if i do ..... ill total my picture and be real pissed at my self tomorow so ..... im supposing that this is the end of my night ..... thanks for the food liz n matt .. ill get you that money some enough

peace everyone ...... leslies eyes have failed him ..... so tell him how bad this typing really is .... i wanna know how i can really type even thoguh i cant see....
its fucknig hilarious cause im going lightning fast even for me ........ so i juar wanna know how moosed up the really is

derek ... weekend w000t .... at least ive got someone to hang with ... beside wagner :S lol
alright well thebn ..... ill talk to you peaples later ...... and look forwward to seeing you real soon brooke ....

take it easy everyone .....the hard way just isnt worth it

night

im sorry it had to be done before the week end people ..... but there is no time like the present ... the future only gets more fucked from holding back

fuck ...... we knew this would happen ... damn you dan . always gotta be so god damn thick skulled dont ya .... fine ill fucking talk to you on my own .. i leave chris out cause i know you dont wanna hear fuck all from him ... but your going to fucknig hear it from me

stop misconstruing my fucking words and stop thinking that everyone is out to get you .. cause the longer you do that and the longer you feel that .... the more truer and true it WILL become
wanna take what we say the wrong way ... not listen to the reasoning for WHY we say what we say .... fine have you pity dwell on your anger to us asking why and "telling" you who NOT to love ... there were only 1056457586 reasons why we fucknig said what we said ..... you just cant get it into your skull

gotta be a god damn german thing

dan all that happened cause we all needed to have our eyes opened
matt learned something from it
as did laura
and liz
and me
and chris
and even you .... or at least you DAMN well better have or i garantee something worse will happen .... but thats not for me to decide .... its up to you

we all got an understanding of ourselves from what me n chris pulled off .....
im sorry for HAVING to do it ... but it WAS necessary and you will get the bigger picture after you realize not to be so anti self .... and so fucking depressed over issues that need dealing with ... not depression
dan when you learn what pain really is .... you will know how to act to it
its obvious that she hasnt hurt you enough .... tearing your heart right out of your chest and rubbing it in every day doesnt seem to be enough to sway your love from her ..... and thats your stupidity
if you like we shall talk face to face ... i almost always free .. and i never sleep ... so just go downstairs when your parents are asleep ... find me on here and converse away .... i knew people would be mad ..... i risked it and was willing to risk it as long as it helps ..... if everyone feels some temperary discomfort to it all ..... but it all gets settled in the end
then deal with it as it happens

enjoy your weekends all .. i think ill just stay in and relax for what remains of mine .... after tomorow of course ... ehich is freakin nerve wracking needless to say

take it easy all .. and thanks for the well wishings diana

ok well bye, going to my trailor, cya on tuesday, or talk to you on monday

Hey!!!!!!!
that's totally sucks about the movie hehe, well glad that u all had fun. have fun lesile and Brooke, well i hope everyone has a wonderful and weekend.
love u all

Noon on a Saturday? Damn that's early. But ya I guess I could pull it off. I had a great time last night. What an amazing movie. Later on in the night my great mood kinda got shot to hell. I knew I'd end up hurting myself with Liz. I could see that right from the beginning. But I just had to try. I have no idea where things will go from here. Whether I should still have any hope or not. So I'll just let it play out and hope for the best. For some reason I just don't stay down for long. Im already feeling my good mood coming back. Hopefully I'll be back to normal by the time the weekend is over.

ok well heres what i have to say about yesterday, i was fine for the last two weeks. never said a think about laura and i was never upset abot her even if we did argue and leslie and chris decide that its a good idea to throw it all back in my face, just as im making steps towards getting over it. so i do thank the two of you. And yes i am alittle mad, and confused as to why it needed to happen. I can understand that i asked a question that i shouldn't have and i am sorry for that but i cant change that now. I feel that the events fo yesterday were not needed. because it seems like it was mostly pointed at me, and you guys dont know when i go home what happens. so you cant figure that i'm not getting over her or not. Oh and something me and liz noticed. When i said i wasn't upset about laura all week or last week he kept asking about the week before that but when it came to liz being upset he said that, that was the past and that didn't matter cuz she was ok now. So chris contridicted him self there, and another thing, when i first started talking to laura again, she said that she would respect the fact that i would get upset if they were acting really close and shit and then one day she told me that chris asked why he should let go of someone he loves. Now the question i ask is why should i let go of someone i love. its the same god damn thing, except laura loves him and not me, althought i dont think many of you know this but she did tell me last week that she still did love me and she always will. but she is with chris and loves him and wants to be with him more then anything else. So the only exception now is that he has her and i dont. So tell me again why should i let go of some i love, why should chris. I can see why he doesn't want to let go of her, but you all have to understand that i dont want to either. Leslie you once told me that when your heart is set on someone you will do anything to get that person. Now i'm not saying i'm doing shit to get to her, i'm just saying that my heart is set on her and you guys are telling me that i shouldn't. Who do you guys think you are that you can tell me who i can and can not love. So yesterdays events i see was only based on two things, me not getting over her and me asking that question. So basically i ruled out the getting over her, and all it really it should have been was about the question, and that could have been done on a one on one conversation, or maybe a conversation just between me leslie chris and laura. I dont mean to offend anyone in this post i am just writing out my thoughts and feels and this is the way i am going to deal with what happened yesterday. And if you have a problem with the way i'm dealing with it, talk to me one on one and we can sort something out, cuz i dont want to lose friends. cuz you guys are all that i have here in ajax. I'm slowly moving my life away from laura, because i haven't seen her out side of school alot, only in english and it has helped that i dont see her at all cuz then i dont think about it, same goes for chris. So to conclude, i might not be going up to matts cottage because, seeing chris and laura together reminds me of the fact that they are together and that is something i want to forget. And if i see them it doesn't help at all, i dont mean to ruin shit for you guys but i am doing this for myself so that things can work out, because, as leslie put it we have to get along and get rid of the shit that is plaqueing our minds. cya have a good weekend, i know if it doesn't rain i will have one. byebye

hey everyone,
i agree bout the ending of matrix 2, but i see why they did it...its a money grab thing...the more money they canmake the better...and that is the best way to do it...its called marketing.
so les i hope ur ready for ur test cause we are leavin at like 12:30 cause we gotta make a stop out at my sis first for the liqour run...so u better call otherwise im gunna call round noon to get u up.
as for this weekend if u guys manage to get up there then ur gunna need directions, so have fun doin that...i just got mine from chris and im leaving around noon on sat...so casey u had better be awake and ready for that.
as for the event of yesterday...i think it was pretty cruel, but i see why u did it...so im not really angry...just a little upset and confused...but i will get over all that...in time...but until then i dunno, well have to see.
anyways i hope everyone has fun this weekend cause i know i will try too...so take care all and have fun.
later.

Hey Everyone! Matrix 2..... I'm pissed, like who makes a movie that's "to be continued!?" Now we have to wait till November to see what the hell happens! But it was a pretty good movie with the fighting and "superman" stuff. Anyways, I didn't really care about the movie, as long as I got to see you all : ) I'm at school right now in math class (not doing my work obviously lol) Good luck getting your G1 Leslie, and your G Matt! If either of you fail, I'll have to laugh cause I failed my G2! Yes I can't wait for the wedding, I got my dress, and I am so excited. The weirdest first meeting/date for me and Leslie, but I'm sure it will be a blast! Leslie, good work on your entire plan thing, although I wish you could have found a better way, cause it seemed to really hurt Dan. I just hope it all works out in the end. I dont hate Chris or Laura, they never did anything to me, but I do disagree with what Laura did to Dan, and she is no to be trusted anymore Dan! Chris honestly does sound like a nice guy, and he didn't know that you and Laura were going out, that's her fault. All I have to say is...... EVERYONE SHOULD GET OVER EVERYTHING AND JUST FORGIVE EACH OTHER! Its your final year, and you all need to get along and have some fun! You can do better honestly! I hope they dont hate me if I go to the cottage though : ( Anyways I g2g to my next class, but I'll ttyl everyone! Thanks for the movie last night, and Dan what did you mean about me and Leslie on Friday? I dont get it! Congrats on your job! Later babes!)
Love Always Brooke!

well ack ........ matrix 2 fuckin rocks ...... but ended to damn crapily ....... BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
....must ...... get .. clothes ..... aRRRg . hehe ..... damn weddings .....and the dressing up part ..... bah ...thats just over the line ...

w00000t im goin for my g1 tomorow ........ and then getting my suit and stuffs ...
then derek ...... after this wedding things .... either saturday or sunday .... if you n me can find a way to chris's cottage we can still go

well people ...... my charade with chris is over ..... and all the cards have been dealt .... so just get the hell along and find the things that make you suffer ....... and rid them from your minds.... cause we are gonna get along
all of us ..... and ill be damned if we dont

either way ..... cant wait to c ya saturday brooke ...... was my pleasure seeing you today ...

ill talk to everyone else later ....
take it easy all .... i might either do the drawing ... or sleep unlike last night

either way . im out

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!

wow i feel special someone thought i was a nice guy........ do i get a prize or something? lol im just kidding i can be nice.... i think ...... maby.... possible.... AHHHH HOT GUY IM NOT WORKING WITH AHHHH im alone in my department GOD DAMN PETSSSSSSSSSSS dead fish old laidy calling her cat precious!!!!!!!!! lol later guys

well les i have one thing to say to u...u are the luckiest man on earth...(u bastard).

i was just listening to meteora...over and over again...and i realize that more than one song reflects my personality...its funny but true.

anyways as for this weekend im most likely goin to chris cottage for 2 days...but i dunno...as for the liqour run, it has been moved to friday around 1 and i only have one order...so i guess that noone wants any alcohol...oh well, for those who do just let me know.

well i cant sleep... too much on my mind so i guess i will just play some pool online...and i will see everyone at school tomorrow.

drawing ... drawing .... drawing at two am ......
holy shit its frickin late .... and im drawin at twoooooooooooo am

lol arg

gotta stop doing stupid ass things like this .... you think i might do homework or something worth while........ perhaps pass a class . noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

im drawing
lol
for my pleasure .... and it feels damn good!

ok ..... to my book

take it easy

hey ......... bitch ...... her name is kathleen lol
get it right damn you

dont make me beat it into you

i dunno about this friday thing .......... but i know there is a movie tomorow ... and a wedding saturday .... friday i have no clue about ..... thats just the future to me ...... it can be dealt with

so it sounds like brooke and leslie are going on friday night and then going to the wedding on saturday, and then coming up to my place on sunday, what is everyone else doing this weekend, ang and pam i know that your coming up to the trailor this weekend, thats good i'll see you two and jimmy and alfie on friday night, i'll be around at 5:30 6ish, so i'll come get you guys right away. I just got back from pool, i kicked my dads ass 3 games to 0 and won 3 bucks off him, now i can start to pay kathline back. i think thatts how you spell her name. Oh well either way i owe her $7.50 and now i can give her $3 so its getting there. and then i'm getting money from my parents tomorrow to pay matt back for the movie ticket. Oh and casey you better get a ticket cuz, it would be good if you were there. anyways i'm off for tonight.

yeah ..... the whole not goin to prom thing is kind of a bummer ... but so long as i get to see you after the whole sha bang ..... its all good

the after parties are sure to be a blast ..... amd i cant wait but maybe thats just cause im in a great mood.... but hehe .... i wonder why that is

well ... till we meet again ... (thursday .. hehe)

take it easy ..... im gonna get to my drawing .... finish that sucker up ....

take it easy all

Casey Im so sorry to hear about your dad.... if you need anything or want to talk please let me know.... even though you dont know me that well... Im sure Dan and all of the guys will stick by you and be there for you though, their amazing guys. Matt thank-you soo much for taking me home the other night, I had alot of fun with you guys! I am soooo looking for ward to prom,it's going to be amazing, and the after parties are sure to cause some trouble (oh yeah!) Awwww Leslie your the cuttist guy ever, I can't wait to go to the wedding! Dan dont worry you got the job, they know you and everyone loves you babes so no worries k? It was nice to meet your friend Derek too he seems like a nice guy, and he works with my hot friend Bryan Precop! This weekend is sure to be a lot of fun and I can't wait for friday to hit! Leslie i cant wait to spend the night with you, and Im sure we'll have a blast! Hopefully I can come up to the trailer with you guys too (oh yeah this weekend is going to rock!) Anyways love you all and talk to you soon k? Later babes!

Mmmm Boooze.... hay your only an alcholoic if you drink alone and well there is ummm... nobody here lol ohhh well so what :P ya matt i want more booze ill let you know what i want. now im off to work to see if i can get my saturday shift moved to some other day so i can go up to the cotage with whoevers going on saturday. anyways later...

p.s. Casey im sorry to hear about your father hope ya feel better, its not the same without a quiet phsyco at school... i dono why lol later

to anyone who can read this site...i am planning to make a liqour run on thursday afternoon of this week...gimme a call on my cell if u want anything...for brooke and diana the number is (905) 432-0180.
everyone else already knows...so just gimme a call and leave a msg if u want anything.

Well this was an interesting day. All my family was there for the viewing as well as family friends and some people I didn't even know. It was great to see everyone and I actually had a good time with my cousins. It's wierd to have had a good time at a viewing, but even my 11 year old cousin commented on how its just hard to be upset when your with so many fun people that you care about. I wouldn't trade my family for anything. Tomorow will be a lot worse. Im sure everyones going to cry at the actual funeral.

well i guess i cant say ive had anywhere near as bad a day as everyone else...but my day went just fine till bout the end of the night at work...when the mayor of pickering walked in after close and ordered 200 wings for him and his buddies...but that only lasted for bout 10 min and now im in a pretty good mood.
i didnt have any problems at school...so i guess u can say ive had a pretty boring day...but recently id prefer boring over eventful.
so anyways i hope tomorrow is better for everyone...and im out
talk to yall later

my day was shit at school .... garbage until i talked to brooke ..... great for about 10 minutes after i talked to brooke ..... then shit for the rest of the day ..... ah well shit happens

no dan im not pissed cause i called chris on the phone ..... i fucking pissed cause i talked to him face to face on sunday and bullshit was said and soon enough it will have to be resolved ...... and lets just say that one of us will not like the outcome.

leslie, i dont care if you called chris, and i hope thats not what your pissed about, you were distracked for a good reason. Anyways school today sucked ass, and then my interview, i dont think i did too good in. I hope i get the job. I'm really looking forward to working there this summer. Anyways i've learnt it is good to save often in boulder's gate mainly cuz those giants in the ice cave rape my ass, and i run out of pots really quickly. Thats what i get for being a level 12 or soemthing like that. Anyways, the game is fun but i still like LOD. So yeah how did everyone one elses day go? fill me in. cya

Hey!!!
Casey i am soooo sorry to hear abour ur dad, hope ur ok if u need to talk then please do alright, your friends are here to help u.
it's ok leslie i understand i am mad to but no one needs to know why, alright well talk to u all later, peace. loven u all. :)

sorry bout all the fucks ..... im just pissed off real badly right now ........ so fuck the fucks that fucked it up

Well it sounds like I missed some fun with everyone saturday night. I was just here drinking with my uncle. He smoked about 4 joints. His room mate grows the stuff so he brought a big bag of it with him. Well, it was a great night but its too bad you guys couldnt come down here. And at least my half a mickey of vodka went to a good cause with you guys. Last night was cool too. Went out for sushi then watched boondock saints with my uncle. Well im off to the beer store now. My dad's funeral is tuesday. And you know we Irishmen like a bit of a drink at a wake. we thinking 10 cases should be enough. well, I'll see you guys sometime this week. Im not going back to school till thursday or friday.

HAHAHA i got on.... YES IM WHITE leave me alone :P

Hey!!!
WOW Leslie take it easy about the whole dialing chris number thing, it's not that important, all u guys worry to much about small things. just ingorne chris and that laura girl dan alright serious she seems like a real big Bitch from what i have been hearing, so get over her u can do better as everyone agrees to me, alright thanks. one last thing stop sayin FUCKING!!!! so much it's being used to much, hehe just playin say it as much as u guys want.

ya uncase u guys where wonderin why i am home because i am not feelin well that's why i stayed home alright thanks. peace. loven u all. :)

fuck it looks like more renegade for me

im the fucking one that called chris ........ noone seems to fucking remember that i fucking dialed the wrong number .... and i fucking forgot to hang up cause i was to busy paying attention to brooke talk about strippin or dancing or something .... maybe i was just making shit up in my mind as she talk lol
i dont know

so everyone just fuck off for a while

stupid people really piss me off

was talking to chris earlier ... decided it was better to speak in person ...... HAAAAAAA ...... no.....
that fucking song can fucking work for this shit right about now .... fuck it / its fucked / fuck him / that fuck / another smashing solo goindown / fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck ........ fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck ............ FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!

course /
stop speaking shit you fuck ....
dont drag us down you fuck ....
dont fuck with me
ill fuck you up
im tired of this you fuck


arg not even renegade is working ....... fuck it im goin for a god damn run ..... i was freezing my ass off earlier cause im on drugs and its fucking me up on the inside .... but who fucking cares anymore ... everything else is more fucked so boo fucking whoo

oh and brooke, u forgot ur "stick" at my house...ill give it too u the next time i see u.

ok dan she told me bout the phone call to chris' last night and i had no explanation for it so i guess she just assumed it was u...though i think it was just someone accidentally hitting the rocket dial on my phone.
i dont know where she got that shit bout brooke...prob just from the fact that she was here...which is bullshit and we all know that.
and as for chris...he doesnt have a chance in hell to even start something, so i wouldnt worry bout it if i were u.

oh one last thing...i have to agree with brooke and diana when they say u should just get over laura cause u can do better...so put urself back on the market and start lookin.

ok well anyways, last night was fun, but todya not so good, cuz laura started bitching at me for accidently calling her house, and then she starts bitch about how everything is my fault. then she started accusing my off calling chris' house last night from matt's, and then saying i was trying to feel up brooke, what the fuck, first i ask did anyone call chris. I told laura that no one would call chris, so it was accident, then she started with how you guys are his friends, and i said that i have a problem with him so why would i call him, and then it was me and leslies night to drink with matt so why would you guys call him. And as far as i remeber leslies dont you have a problem with chris and laura. She told me that you were there on friday night, if you were thats good for you buti thought you couldn't hang around them. Anyways she also told me that chris hates me know more then ever, and when he sees me hes gonna rip my head off. I would like to see that fucken twig try. Anyways i hope she dies, would someone like to kill her for me. AHH why the fuck does she have to be living. fuck her.

well people ..... seems i was wong last night when i told brooke that i still had purple colours left on my foot :) ...... ive healed alot more then i thought ....
as of yet the only visible colours on my foot are pink from where the ligament tears are ... yellow green and a little red over the area of where the muscle tore ...

those of you who dont know the colour schemes of bruises ... green and yellow means that the bruise is healing and all thats left is for sensativity to kick back into the skin around the bruised area, and when that happens you will all know cause as soon as it does happen ..... the skin gets extremely itchy ... and ill be scratching away at it lol

so yeah ..... i predict that in a week or 10 days .... my foot will have visibly recovered ... and ill be able to get me ass into a pool ... and get my body back w0000000000t

well i look forward to seeing you people again
(meaning brooke and diana ...... considering i see all the males that are here, every damn day)
and perhaps joining in the drunkenness .... could be fun ;)

well i dunno what im gonan do for the rest of the day .... might just sit back and draw again ...... not sure yet

either way
take it easy

Hey Everyone!!

wow sounds like everyone had a great time last night, i would have came wanted to alot but stupid ass homework. well next time for sure i will.
love that is the strongest word in the world, so many people use it but not for the right meaning. ya it is pretty much true good guys do come last no idea why, always wanted to know, i'm guessing becasue some girls like the bad boys like to be treated like shit i guess no idea.

Dan hun please don't stress over laura she is soooo not worth it. if she can not see what kind of sweet and amazing guy u are then u know what she is missin out alot. also u can do soooooooooooo much better and u know it. just that girl pr hasn't come into ur life yet. but remember ur young just enjoy every day is if it's ur last. plus the most important people in ur life are your friends and family the ones that will always be there for u and will never dare to hurt u. alright hun. well it is really hard to let go of ur frist true love no idea why i guess because u have shared everything and u trusted them. all i can say is that god has our lifes planned and we will never know, everyday is a new surprise which can be bad or good but we just have to deal with it and see what happens.

hope u feel better dan. awww Matt that sucks about u not being able to drink after u dropped off brooke.

just wanted to say that u guys all ROCK!!!! u guys are amazin guys!! thanks.
have a wonderful day. peace.
loven u all. *hugs* :)

it was my pleasure to bring u home brooke...but i didnt drink when we got back...i think the car ride upset dans stomach and i went to the bathroom then come back and his head is in a bucket...that just ruined the mood, so im gunna be sober for another little while before i go to bed...on the couch.
but thats alright...ill get over it. as long as u had fun im happy.
sry casey...it was a good idea for us to come hang out with u but i dont wanna move dan...the car upset his stomach as it is now...so further movement would just make it worse.

ive been thinking a little since i dropped off brooke...one thing dan said tonight is that nice guys finish last, and i think i have figured it out as to why...nice guys have morals that they withstand at all times and under all circumstances, therefore if an opportunity comes, a nice guy's morals will stop him while a man with no morals will not stop, hence making the woman feel that the other guy is "better" and leave the nice guy alone. also a nice guy appears to be too much of a friend, therefore the woman feels that the man is a friend...and the relationship doesnt go any further. in some ppls eyes this is finishing last and causes the nice guy to hurt even more when the woman really begins to open up, and the nice guy is just a friend...no more;no less.

i dont know if that made any sense to other ppl...its just what i thought...
anyways im off for the night...i think ill go to bed on the couch and let the drunks have my bed once again...has happened too many times...so good night and see yall later

Well tonight was awesome! I am so drunk LOL and my typing may not be that good. But here's some advice.... Dan if Laura wanted to go for that guy... let her! She's missing out on you, and that's just fucking stupid!!! If shes happy then let her be, she'll realize what shes missing, and she'll come back, but when she does you may not want her, because I know that you can do much bettter, dont go for someone that hurt you that badly, if she did it once she may do it again! Tonight was so fun, thanks Matt for driving me home, I'm sorry you couldn't drink until 12:00, I'll purchase you some boooooze one weekend to make up for it. Your cottage sounds awesome if I can come, it would take some convincing from Dan's mom, but that would be soo cool after an amzing prom! It's going to be awesome, me and Dan's first dance LOL, Leslie should have come though, he'll regret it, he'd look hot in a suit!!!! Dan I'm bringing a camera and getting tons of pics of us k? If I can come to the after party that will be awesome tooo!!!! Wow Leslie is damb sexy, and he likes frogs, AWESOME!!!!! Well I hope to talk to all of you soon, and have a good hangover tommorow!!!! I have to work :( but hey maybe I can see you guys this week k?
Love ya lots!
Kisses from Broooke!

well first off its nice to see that brooke and diana can actually post...cause when i first got on here i was told that u could and never saw a msg...so its nice to see a response from more of a female population.
as for those questions dan...everyone has to answer them for themselves...those are questions that noone can answer for someone else...its sort of a personal thing and when u have figured it out u r ready for the rest of ur life.
well today is my first birthday celebration and all of the drunks are asleep except me...so it sux...i got casey reading what i am typing, while chris and laura are asleep on my bed...so moo. i need another drink but noone else if drinking...damn...im not gunna be the alcoholic that drinks alone...but i so wanna.
im making another alcohol run tomorrow...well today, at 5 so if anyone wants something let me know and ill pick it up at the store, then bring it to dans house that night.

Hey Everyone
Whats up? Well to answer your questions Dan... The people who we date the longest dont stay friends because they know us the best, and are hurt whenever they see us. They know that by being around us that they'll want us back, and thats not what they want right now. Short relationships never really get very far, so we stay friends with the people, almost wondering what could have happened, or if anythuing could ever happen again in the future. I wish we could forget the ones who hurt us, but its impossible trust me Ive tried. But as me and Diana have always said "it makes us stronger" we learn from our mistakes so that when we find the one person we really care about we can keep them and deal with all of the problems that we have to go through. You may think that youve already found that person and just cant have them, but honestly if you're meant to be you will be Its all about SERINDIPITY! I love you Dan no worries, everything will get better I promise you that, and for anyone who hurts you, they deserve to burn in hell. WARNING: Anyone who hurts my best friend better watch out, he my baby, and I have no problem fighting you! hheheheh
To finish my note: Leslies hot, very hot lol MUAH!!!! Love you guys Later!!

why do we care about someone so much even if we know we cant have them, or if they have treated us like shit for so long? why do we do the stupid things we do, when we know that we are only just going to get hurt in the end? Why does love make us do such stupid things and put up with so much crap? why does love blind us all? Why do we fall in love in the first place? What causes to be attracked to the people that we are attracked to? Why do the ones we go out with for so long become our enemies when the relationship ends? Whyt do the ones we go otu with for a short period of time remain friends? Some of these are easy to answer, i already know some of them, but there are the rest that are so difficult to answer. All i want to know is why, why cant i stop caring?

well what ever people
what ever happens happens ...... we'll see

hey!
i have no idea really what this whole thing is so maybe u guys can explain for me alright. talk to u all later. peace.

my mom is calling my bluff, she thinks i'm going to havea party at my place on saturdya so i told her i wasn't, and that she could get someone to check, and she called my bluff. God fucken damn. so matt we might need to go to your place. Or casey said we could get wasted with his uncle, haha the weed growing uncle for that matter, the one that grows the blueberry sented weed for that matter. i find that so funny. anyways cya

update on enternce fee to my trailor, its around 4 bucks my mom says for a day pass, so leslie your just gonna have to duck when we approach.

ok well 10ish sounds good, my parents are only gonna be up their at 2:30 the earliest so i need the trailor keys to get in. Anyways my familey doesnt have a visitor pass and cuz your car isn't registered with the park you and leslie cant get in free, and i think its $7 or $12 per visitor but i think we can get away with only paying for one, which will have to be matt cuz hes driving unless i drive into the park which then we would probably be able to get in free. Anyways just bring up some cash just in case, and i'll see what i can get from my parents. Anyways this pisses me off ,my dad is getting a CLK today, and for those of you that dont know its like the car he has know but two door and convertable. O well we'll take a spin when my parents get up there, should be fun. And leslie i'll talk to my paretns about you coming up the long weekend. Cuz i wouldn't want to go up to chris' cottage either, i dont know your reasons i just know that you have issues with the two of them. I have my own issues, which all of you know about. Anyways, i think coming home at 12:30 from X-2 ruined my chances of going out the matrix on thursday, and maybe even ruined my chances of going with matt to get his car system. My mom asked this morning about why i was going home tomorrow, and i said to drop leslie off at home for his moms b-day, and then she was like "i thought it was matts birthday party and i said yeah that two and adams moms b-day as well. Anyways thats all cleared, but then she asked what we were going to do, and i said same shit as normal. She started on this whole drinking thing again, and i told her not yet cuz we aren't of age. So thats cleared up as well, but at matts cottage i will let her know that we were drinking, so haha. Thats if i go. anyways peace i'm out, right now i'm in first period. hehe o well cya