hey guess what, i got my G license, and i also got a new cell phone, its cool it takes pictures and its got a colour display and everything. I also joined Linkin Park Underground last night, so in a couple of weeks i should be getting the shit that everyone gets when they join up. hehe, now i can buy tickets before they go on sale to public because i'm special. hehe, go me. anyways haven't heard anything from steph in a while, well i haevn't heard anything from her since she sent me that email. wow this key board feels weird to type on but i think its the same one that i use at work. might just not be used to typeing seeing as how i haven't done it in a while. well i think thats enough for now.
ciao

hey guess what, i hate women, women always seem to have this habit of making things worse. like on tuesday i got an email from steph saying that shes breaking up with me. for gods sake i thought that we were gonna deal with the problems and jsut stick it out together but i guess not. i guess she felt that it was just to much for her. bah to hell with girls. stay friends my ass, we'll see about that. i have work to do so thats it for me, we'll see if i feel like posting here later. i dont care about not puting a day count up there cuz it doesn't even matter anymore.

Day 35 / Day 3

technically its both day 35 and day 3, becuase we are back at square one again. So as i sit here i work i cant help but check my email and my phone every 5 minutes in hope that i get some message from steph like i did last week. last week was great we talked all week long through emails back and forth between her phone and my emails at work and at home, and also sometimes from my cell phone too. but now thats all gone again but i still check in hope.

Day 32

its been a while since i've posted anything, maybe i should actaully get around to posting something. Really the only thing i have to post about is barrie, it was great. loved staying up there and drinking the whole weekend. that was amazing, gonna do it again in a couple of weekends. goddamit its been 32 days since her parents flipped out. well things are getting better, the summer is coming closer. meaing the trailor park, meaning friends, meaning hanging out, and also on top of all that theres steph. hehehehe :) i want to post more but i just dont feel like it at all.

Day 25

wow almost 30 days, and we have been going out for almost 2 months, so that's about half the amount of time that we have been going out I haven't been able to talk to her. That really sucks. Well its Friday and I'm going to johns place tonight, hope everything is cool with me and Laura and me and Noelle. I thought Laura was fine, but the whole trying to get me sacked thing bothered me. She seemed alright when we were talking. I wonder if she's the one that's gonna be picking me up, or if its gonna be matt, either way I hope john goes with, and Chris doesn't cuz she doesn't talk to me when Chris is around so it would make for a very awkward car ride back to John's. anyways its just about 5 here so i'm gonna start getting ready to go to the bus terminal, and i want to be there about 15 to 30 mins ahead of time so that i dont miss it. i have my mp3 player and my mp3 cd so i got plenty to listen to on the bus ride up there. i brought both bottles of booze, i doubt i'll be drinking the rum but i know the whiskey is gonna get drunk. anyways so thats enough for me today. cya

Day 21

So this is day 21, 3 weeks, that this has been going on, almost a month. i wonder whats going to happen and how this is all gonna turn out, i haev this feeling that they dont mind us bing friends but anything more then that they care about. Hopefully she gets off her grounding soon. 3 weeks is a long time. Well its like 5:20 and i'm off work now, just sitting around, waiting for my dad to get off work so that i can go home. I'm going to go see jimmy and alfie this week and stay for diner. probably wednesday or thursday. I want to go and see brooke again this week. I need that phone card from noelle, and that reminds me i got a cell phone for work. i get txt msgs on it, i tried it today, but i dont know if its gonna cost or anything to receive them so its best not to send anything. Johns place this weekend, i really want to go, but i'm really starting to question cuz i wont get along with chris, laura, and most likely noelle cuz yeah well hard to explain. shes become just like laura did, after we broke up, we were freinds for a bit then pissed each other off completely, and then just dont talk anymore and kinda want each other to die. well oh well, what can you do, another person lost... wagners being a bitch cuz he only calls me when he has nothing better to do, his sister is become more friendlier then he is. meh, shes cool, i've known her since she was like 3 years old. anyways thats enough for today. and i still need to decide wether to drive up to johns or to take the bus. gotta find out when buses come. anyways ciao

Day 16

Well hello again, wow that word took 7 tries to type properally. I got paid today, its great, i get paid $12.00/hour, its great i'd like to see someone i hang out with top that one. So thats 50% more then what i was getting paid at the town of ajax, so i'm for sure not going back to that, here theres more money, and i mean sure its a completely different expierence here. But the job is still relatively easy, and it looks like thats pretty much how its gonna stay, one of the bonuses is that i dont have to deal with little bratty kids. And believe me the ones that went to sports camp were terrible. Hopefully i get my computer by the end of the week, and wow with all the money that i'm gonna be making its gonna be great. I'll be able to go and buy the stereo system for my car. score. but then i also have to put away quite a bit of money for college, and yeah i think thats were i'm gonna go. College insted of university, because i like the sounds of college better. That theory crap that they pull at university is boring. I like the more practical stuff, it makes more sense. Anyways i dont really have much else to say except that its damn day 16 how long will this go on for, i know its only 16 days, and thats not that long but it seems for ever, i mean steph is one of best friends, i can talk to her about anything, she is one of the few people, if not the only person, i can talk to all the time and just never run out of things to say. Still think about her everyday wondering when things will change because even tho we aren't allow to talk now its not goona last forever, eventually we both will not put up with it anymore and will talk, i mean steph is one of the people that i want to keep around forever, there or some other people that i would have liked to keep around forever as well but things changed and its not possible anymore, doesn't mean i dont wish it was otherwise. But i'm sick of giving up good friends, best friends, i will not give up steph, i will fight this till the end, its what teenagers are supposed to do anyways, am i not right? Noelles always saying that i dont rebel enough, but i think i do, not everyone is like her that just disappears for days. It pisses me off how she always has to bitch about that kinda crap, so what i dont mind going home, some people do get along with their parents to some extent. Oh and then theres the fact that she has turned into laura in almost every way. That i will explain a bit later cuz its hard to type it out, lots of explaining invloved, best left to be in person. But seeing as how really its only me in here, and i already know what i'm talking about. Guess it'll just have to wait until i see steph. anyways thats enough ranting for tonight. so later

Day 15

ok so i failed to report on Day 11, 12, 13, 14, but i'm posting now. Anyways its been 15 days since i have been asked not to talk to steph again. And its been, and its also been 10 days since i got my tattoo. I guess you can say that the tattoo was something to celebrate getting out of school, maybe it was something for steph, maybe it was something that i just wanted and had no other thought in it at all, but i know i like Linkin Park and i know that it was a worth while tattoo, and something that i'm not going to regret. However it is very itchy, because in the morning i put cream on it so that it doesn't get itchy but the cream wears off by 4 in the afternoon, and i dont get home until 7:00 or even 7:30 depending on when my dad goes home. Today i ate chinese food again, i'm really starting to like chinese food now, sweet and sour pork or chicken is the best. All the different types of noodles are ok i mean noodles are noodles, i dont really haev a favourite because i mean they taste the same, the only difference is the sauce that the noodles are in. its 5:35 right now and my dad still has someone in his office, meaning we wont be getting out of here for awhile. I think its the Mr. Trautwine guy, or what ever his name is. Hes from german. He's here for a while, and at the moment when he needs a desk, he uses the one next to mine. Right now i'm not at my desk because i dont have a computer yet, and i still haven't gotten my new cell phone either. I get a company phone. I hope its one of those new blue blackberrys. Those are cool, its like a handheld computer, its got email and everything, plus its a phone. I hope i get that, and if not i hope i get a phone that has text msgs, so that i can send them and recieve them as well. And the best part is i dont have to pay for the phone, although i'm sure there are plenty of rules that i have to follow. But i hope that i can use the phone even when i'm not working, but that would kinda suck cuz then my parents could always contact me, at the moment they cant because i leaev my cell at home and it has no money on it, so all its good for is recieving text msgs from people. Other than that its no good, oh and that its a handy address book, its got all my important phone numbers in it. anyways i think thats enough for today, maybe i will post again later tonight.