There is something i have to say...but i am having a hard time actually saying it...because it hurts me to even think it...but it must be said, so here it goes
Within the past few hours, i have been having trouble sleeping...so i have had time to think through what is going on in my head...and here is a small, but sufficient taste of what that is for everyone and anyone who is not involve...anyone who is however, or thinks they are, will have to come to me either on msn or in person to find out for sure.

I feel that in the past few weeks, many people that I have confided my trust in have betrayed me. These people may know who they are and they may not, but that is neither here nor there. The fact is that in my mind I have been betrayed and that needs to be resolved. Some of these people have very good reasons to betray my trust for I have done something to them first, and I apoligize for that, but for others I can see no reasoning to it and that only frustrates me further. Due to this fact, I will find it difficult to confide my trust in anyone anymore...and to those who are not involved, I apoligize, but it is the way it must be...for me. The reason this idea hurts me so, is in the past I have done all I can to help people out in their time of need, regardless to the reasons they are there, and regardless of what I may be doing or planning on doing during that time. For example I have made an extra trip out to Oshawa for people, when I wasnt even planning on going...but I made the time, because as a friend I felt that it was my responsiblity to help in anyway I can...but resently I have discovered that I may have been mistaken...so that all will change...and I'm not going to go out of my way for anyone except me...because otherwise I leave myself open to get hurt...and I dont like that.

Anyways...in conclusion, if you wish to know if you are involve, you must talk to me, and for those who have questions I will answer them, but you must talk to me...and also there are others who do not have the ability to read this blog, and that is something that I must deal with...so I hope noone discusses this with them...so now is my time to leave and make another attempt to get some sleep, so I good you bid evening...........