ok well fuck that black on black sunfire, the guy told me to be there from 4:30 to 5:30, and he wasn't even there. So that place is off the list, damn. I need a car, and it fucking sucks, cuz noone close sells good cars, i have to drive like 1h just to go and see a car let alone, get all the other shit for it. fuck people piss me off.

work is going good so far, we have boring parts, like filling out forms and shit, but it getting better everyday, next week i actually start working with the kids. And i know what most of you are thinking, who would leave their kid with me, but hey some people actually do. Today was pretty fun we had to take inventory of our equipement for sports camp, and we started fighting, and pushing each other into the huge mat used for high jump, it was great. I get to go shopping for my car tonight. hehe, i'm hopefully gonna buy it, its a 2000 black on black sunfire. I cant remeber if it has power windows and shit, but if not thats the first thing i'm putting in, and keyless entry. I hope it has the power features. anyways the guy wants $8,500 for it, and i think it has 72,00km, so its a good deal. I'm gonna try and haggle the guy down abit. Anyways i've got some shit to do for work so i will be back on here later. Oh and sorry matt for blowing up in my last post, but really i dont feel like being bitched at.

ok hellos guys this time no one is making me write in this im just very bord so yeah i got all these new clothign yeah i look damn good yeah right i wish alright thats about all im going to say
beybey

ok you know what, matt, chris can suck my cock, i aint dealing with him, i aint solving this shit, count me out from now on. I really dont feel like dealing with shit right now, so back off, ok. And if he does confront me, and i get pissed, beware that he will not be standing long. sound good, does to me. Now as for anyone else that thinks that they need to voice their opinion keep it to your self, i dont want to hear it. got it. I really dont need shit from him or you guys, like i said count me out. And Casey i need that money soon for the ticket to the concert.

OK now this is fucking pathetic...i have chris comin to me tell me that shit needs to be taken care of like he fucking expects me to take control of this whole fucking situation and make everything better...sorry chris but im not that good...next is dan, we make plans so that he can fuckin come and make sure that he is the first to fucking confirm...then his bitch mother goes and says no u cant go so he puts his tail between his legs and runs...dan u have to fuckin learn that ur mom doesnt run ur life...ur ole enough that u can deal with ur own responsibilities and then u can have ur own fun...once u learn this u have to teach ur parents that they dont have to fuckin watch over u every second and control ur life...it jsut wont work, it will end up with u resenting ur parents and ur parents resenting u...brooke u are in the same spot as him.....ur parents control ur life and it is just wrong...they dont have that power.

this may make me seem like a bad influence but i really dont fuckin care, i believe that u need to be told this and u need to take some action in ur own lives.
as for the bbq tonight dan, chris was gunna show up to confront u and try to work things out(had nothing to do with me...i didnt encourage, but i didnt discourage either)...but guess not now, u just put ur tail between ur legs again and ran away...is has to be done, whether u like it or not.

interesting, you were the last person i thought that might be depressed, you always seemed to be pretty good. Well i guess that just means that things aren't always the way they seem. I've been thinking about seeing one my self, but i'm sure if i should, i dont know if i need one, or if i dont, i dont know wether shits ok or its not, at this moment in my life i dont know much of whats going, i seem to questioning things alot and thinking alot. I wish time would slow down, so that i could get caught up, because i feel like my life has taken off with out me, and left me behind, because i still seem to be lost. either way, schools finished, i've been done for two days now, and still bored as fuck. i have a bbq to go to tonight, and then striaght from there to soccer. I dont know how i'm gonna manage that, well i should be able to cuz the bbq is from 4 till 6 and then soccer starts at 7, so i basically have to go from one to the other right away. Brooke are you interested in coming to the game tonight? Oh and wagner we are always here if you need us

Well....Well....Well....Last night was pretty fun eh? the box of coffee cups...whiskey bottles...paint cans...stacks of plastic boxes...bricks...one could go on and on.
Well Freday is looking swell although there is going to be lots of food...maybe too much...I dont know...dont care. Well, I wnt to guidence the other day and Ms Tembe advised me to seek a psychiatrist cause she thi ks that i am depressed..with hassles...with life....

Little note for anyone that cares, i fixed the problem with the archives, so anybody that wants to read posts from the past, just click on the link for that week. And you can read all the posts that were posted on that week.

well that was a good night. Anyways, now that i'm home it sucks, i so wish i had a car, cuz then i could just leave whenever i wanted too. I'm so bored, and i got nothing to do, i get bored of the games that i have really quickly, well maybe not GTA Vice City, but thats so far away, its all the way up stairs. Oh matt that popcorn chicken was great. i have to find out when i'm going up to the trailor, this weekend, most likely i wont be able to stay the night at dereks, so i'm gonna go home when diana and brooke go home, unless, my mom wants to leave on friday which might mean that i have to leave before that. Cuz brooke your coming up this weekend right? You know what guys, no matter how hard i try and tell myself that i am over laura, its not working. Every now and again it hurts, things remind me of her or i hear her name, and then my day goes to shit for a little while. And thats why i enjoy my trailor so much, cuz i can get away from her, and have a good weekend with my buddys. I'm not saying that i dont havea good time with you guys here in the good old ajax, but its different here, laura is here, laura is a topic here, Ask brooke she has seen me at my trailor, fucken flying high as a kite, unless christina pisses me off. I leave you with a quote from a song called "Forget You" by "Mest"

Why can't I forget you and everything you do / It's so hard to do / Why can't I forget you and everything you do / It's so hard to do

ok so its the week of the bbq and i want to get some clearification on numbers for the event as well as $$$ and booze, so if everyone coming could let derek and myself know as well as give us the 7 for food and whatever for booze, it would be much appretiated.
thx and i hope to see u all there

hellos
whats new with u guys nothing ok so there making me post somthing fuck them and go to hell well i have a pretty crappy week so this fukcing sucks i need to get a better life fuck i need somthing to do well yeah so this is all
byebye

Well finally out of school, that was my last day of classes, it felt good, but whats strange is i dont seem to care, its not that exciting. It does kinda suck, cuz now that i dont go to second period i got to meet all of kevin and kims friends, and they are really cool, and one of them i think i might even like. But still its not an instant connection. And thats what i'm looking for, anyways. One exam down, two left, english and math on monday. My teachers gonna ask were i have been the last two and a half weeks. And i'll tell her that i skipped. Cuz i dont care, what are they gonna do, not allow me to right the exam? O well, its not like i have a chance in passing that course as is so thats fine. Yeah just to let everyone know, i'm going up tonight i want to say good bye to jimmy and alfie, cuz its the last time i get to hang with them for a while. I'll be home on saturday evening around midnight. So if you guys aren't drunk or something give me a call. But i have to get up early the next morning, oh and casey you gotta me at my house between 7:00am and 7:30am so that the taxi doesn't have to drive around all over the place. That and its cheap cuz he doesn't have to go any extra distance. Ok well i'm outta here. and i leave you with this small quote from "Ich Will" by "Rammstein" Oh And Derek how is that flash banner coming?

Ich will die Ruhe storen

7 dollars is nothing, for this bbq, if you think abou it, you can have 4 burgers and 1 or maybe 2 hot dogs, all for 7 bucks, thats cheap, image what it would cost at a resturant, or McDs or toher burger places, its usually like 6 bucks just for one burger. Anyways yeah i cant wait, i hope every goes smoothly, i have my doubts, but we'll see how things go. Anyways i'm off to finish my computers exam, that is due tomorrow at the end of class. Oh be the way i might not be home thise weekend until saturday night. cuz i might havea ride home, i have to find out for sure.

Hey Everyone!!
what's going on?

wow i haven't posted on here for a few weeks i think, well i am in class doing nothing cause all my work is at home. life is soooo confusing because u think u want something but then ur not sure damn it i hate it soooo much. WOW the bbq will be soooo much fun, i soooo can not wait to see all of u guys, 7 dollars who are u kiding not even i don't wanna pay, i am so joking hehe that's wicked i totally know what ur rents are saying. good idea so everyone bring 7 DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks.
well i hope everyone is doing alright and such....so glad that school is finished next week my god about time. This summer is going to ROCK!!! yes Brooke me and u this summer kicking it off with guys and girls hehe ya ya :)
Bryan said that we can go on saturday night if we want so just give me a call Brooke something soon. k.

alright well i am off to do nothin but chat to friends hehe, peace. :)

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ok Matt and i spent 4 hours planning this thing and it is all finalized, we have the people we have the food we have the plans so who ever said they are comming and don't... im sorry but we are going to have to break your knees. ok so bbq is at my house (43 Angus Dr. ajax ontario :P) come around 6 or 7 on friday june 20th give liqour orders to matt.... and the part that you all knew was comming... there is a $7.00 entry fee because my parants don't feel like giveing us $88 something in food to us. but its worth it (no we are not profiting from this). ok so yes get us the money by next wensday so we can do the shopping. Matt and i are going to be setting up my backyeard on friday morning if anyone would like to help out let us know it would be appreciated! anyways thats all for now so yes COME AND HAVE FUN YOU PUSSIES!

Hey Everybody!
I haven't posted on here in quite a while. Wow Dan it does sound like your weekend was absolutely terrible!!! I told you that you should have stayed home. I had an awesome Friday, and Saturday was a lot of fun at times, and terrible at others because of the party that I went too. Anyways, I hope to be able to come up to the trailor soon cause it was a lot of fun when I was up there, and I got to see Rob : ) He's awesome!!!! What a sweet guy, but I don't know what's happening with that right now. I don't know what I want I think I just want to go and have some fun for the summer ; ) hehehehehehehe. That B.B.Q. sounds really good, and I can't wait to come to that with all of you guys! I hope that movie was good, I really want to see that some time soon. Yesterday was fn though, Rob and I hung out and then we went to Montana's with Danielle, Alison, and Jenn. It was mad fun, we made Rob go braq shopping with me, and then we ate Mile High Mud Pies, and we had a fight with our food. Hehehhehe then Horner Showed up and h was sexy so it just got better and better! Anyways, I hope to see you all soon!
Later Guys! Diana is the coolest we are doing Bryan's party tonight k ? YEAH FUN!
Love Brooke

Qoutations from this mornings computers class;
"If the shoe fits, wear it. If the drive fits use it" - Derek
"Shut Up Cole!!! - Wait was that cole??" - Adam Bailey
"I'm gonna be a 12 pack" - Dan (Me)
as more come up i will add them.

soccer in rain on sunday, was fun u should of came

ok well yeah this weekend coming up i'm staying here, unless i find a way to get home on saturday so that i can go to my stupid training thing. Oh and derek if you talkin about the group falling apart and me thinking that your just talking about me and laura and chris. Well i know your not just talking about us, i know your talking about every, but when i responded to your post i gave my input on my situation. Anyways yeah so my weekend was complete garbage. Friday night wasn't that bad, i went and i smoked up and drank, and drove the CLK for alittle while, top down. Saturday morning first thing that comes out of my mom is if i drove the car the night before. Cuz my parents friends saw me driving, so that wasn't good. Then i had to go the the beer store and give in all the empty beer bottles that we got last weekend. Saturday during the day was pretty crap, with the exception that i hurt myself a bit, that was fun. We were playing full contact hacky sack. Saturday night, The owner of our park told us that he needed djs for a dance at the other park he owns, and guess what that was shit too, no good looking girls at all. There was one decent looking girl, and i danced with her, but yeah she wasn't that good looking. There were some people there that i just wanted to kick the shit out of just for the reason of how retarded they are. They aren't really retarded they just presented themselves to be complete dumbasses. Saturdya night when i got back at like 12, i saw christina, and i walked around with her for a little while and that was ok. until i found out the next morning of what she did after i dropped her off at home. So for those of you that are wondering that is why i'm not to fond of her right now. Then on sunday i spent 3 hours walking around my whole fucking park collecting beer bottles. Our grand total now for both weekends is $173.00 Thats not bad for two weekends. And it also means that we havea very alcoholic park. And by the time i was done, everybody had gone home, which sucked cuz i didn't get to hung with anybody on sunday. I wanted to go to my soccer pratice but when i got home it was raining and i saw thunder and lighting so that was a no good as well. So yeah weekend was shit to conclude, anybody want to tell me about their weekend? Cya

well dan...sounds like you've had better times...anyways u should stay here for a weekend and have some fun with us...besides, maybe u will be able to get me to drink seriously...cause casey is getting frustrated.

derek it would help if i know what your talking about. and yeah besides that weekend was shit, brooke you would be glad that you didn't come up. And christina can forget about it, she can lick pile a shit.

just in responce dan im not JUST talking about you and laura and chris

Hey Everyone,
Whats up? How are all of you doing? I haven't seen any of you in quite some time. Maybe we will all chill soon. Dan I hate you, you get to go to the cottage while we are all stuck here in Ajax, you should stay with us!!! Next weeekend we can't go either because we have to go to that LONG training session!!! Anyways hopefully we can go the weekend after that because I had so much fun it was AWESOME!!! Then you can see whats happening with you and Christina!!!! I am really bored right now in Entrepreneurship class : ( This weekend better be awesome because I need to go out and have some good times!!!! I get to see Steve this weekend MINT, and then get drunk at my girlfriends b-day party! Diana we are so chilling and shopping, and then maybe roller-blading : ) Congrats on your job at Rogers cause thats awesome and then we can go and get our hair done!!!! Anyways I better go and work now k?
Love you all very much
Later!!!! Hey Wagner good to finally see you posting! Diana thinks your hot heheehehhhee Leslies hot too but hes off this post now!
Bye

Good Going Matt.....what doyou have to trust people with when youre drunk?? oh well.....finally Friday....im not drinking much eithr but its for different reasons...mainly cause it doesnt thrill me or any shit like htat so [Casey] stop trying to get me drunk!!! LOL Why do we have to do stuff that costs money?? What about us poor people?? it is better doing stuf in small groups though...Im outta here...Ciao!

oh and dan u have got to reinvite the hustons to this blog...stew already has an account with the name arauth if u need that.

ok ppl i have discovered why i dont drink very much anymore. i find that i have trouble trusting the ppl i drink with, and i guess that is a big problem for me. so everyone will have to get used to the fact that i wont be drinking much, until my mind decides that it is a good time...so casey, no more pressure. anyways i felt that that was something that needed to be said, and so now that i have said it, i am gunna leave and maybe go to bed...we will see
so ill see everyone later...maybe at school tomorrow.

ok i understand everyones concern for the sake of everyone else, but i did try to get along with laura, and as you all know that is my issue. Anyways back to my point, i did try but for those of you that were at caseys house we all realized, well at least i did that it wasn't gonna work, and frankly i dont give a shit. And yes derek i agree with you, shit is falling apart but you all have to understand that my problem with her is gonna stay the same, it will not be resovled, so this is for everyone, count me out of any activaty that involves them. And i know i might lose you guys as friends, and that is something that i dont want to do, but i have tryed to get along and be around her but it doesn't work so i'm deal with it the way i think i should and that is distance myself from her and chris as much as i can. Now i know this will cause problems but i am willing to be the one to back down on every occasion that comes up. this is for my benifit and solely my benifit. If i bother people or harm people in the process i apologize now, but this time i'm doing shit for myself and i'm not goign to worry about others. As leslie pointed out to me the other day, i ahve good guy syndorm, and i know that, i let people push me around and take advantage of me. Brooke has told me before as well that i'm just too nice. And that i always put others before myself. But for this situation i am not going to be like that. So if i dont see you guys for a while you all know why. Anyways i'm going to sleep. So cya all at school tomorrow.

This group of friends has grown and changed and each of us has changed individually. Thats where the problems are. A lot has happened between people and hopefully a lot of the bad stuff can be forgotten so people can move on. We have to get used to who everyone is now and find a way to make it work. The neutral people have been trying to hold things together but thats not the way to solve the problems. Some conflicts are understandable and may have to be worked around. But others should be worked on by the individuals involved. If someone has a problem with someone else then its up to them to confront the problem and solve it. Its up to each individual to sort out who their friends are and whats most important to themselves. And if a conflict can be worked around then people should do whatever they can to fix it, for the sake of everyone else.

Yeah...Dereks Right...shit's falling apart. Itsa shocker to se derek make sence of something andhave people agree with it. Itis very un-white of him to do so. Wasn't it better when we did stuff and there were no hassles...no problems and no worries about whos going and how many people going. Imiss doing stuff that doesnt cost money like chillin or walking around the rough necks of ajax at 4 in the morning. But now people are worried about other people doing shit and they wont do shit cause someone else wont do shit...As leslie says I shrugg it off. oh well...what the fuck is going on? Im white too, probable not as white as some people bu im really nigganeese.

i agree with derek...and yes u are making sense...this circle of friends is breaking up and ive done all i can but ive decided that im not gunna fight anymore...so if u want to put effort in go right ahead, otherwise none of us are gunna come out on top.

hummm well ain't this beautiful, no one posted again. i have noticed over the past few months this group of friends has been drifting further apart, i remember when we all would just go do shit and there was nothing hard about it we all went, now its ok he can't go if he goes, they won't come unless they come, i don't feel like going, and so on. seems to me like its almost as much work getting together as it is to to walk a tight rope across niagra falls. me being the nutral guy i am i find it annoying and just plain dumb. chain reactions are going off and more people are getting restrictions on who they will and will not see. you all have to ask youself who your friends are and what your priorities are. so ya now that i sound odd cuz im actually making sence, well to me at least.... yes im still white. but yes i think alot of you guys have alot to figure out later.

wow i don't post for 1 week and there are only 6 posts ahead of mine... SLACKERS EVERY ONE OF YOU. Matt i am in full agreement i say everyone who goes from now on shale split the cost, lets say 4 people go and the tab is $20 each person is to pay $5, no more or no less, and if you do pay less you are debted to the person who payed for you. just my thoughts... SOOOOOOOOOOO how is everyone? (i expect EVERYONE to respond to this yes this mean YOU)

well dan...your wish is my command! i am posting. like i said before i have nothing to write about....i almost fell asleep in math class. i was trying so hard to stay awake and i was looking at the clock like every 2 seconds to see if it was over. this weekend is going to be very shitty. i'm hoping to stay home but if i don't i think brad is coming up (doubt it) and if he does i'll be happy that i finally get to see him cuz i hardly ever do because he's a goof and whatever. i think im going shopping tonight...i hope i am because i really want to but now i'm really bored and i'm waiting for time to pass but it's not working so i'm just going to blab about nothing at all untill 4:30/5:00...somewhere around there. i want to go to Edgefest and Warped tour but i don't think that i'm going to get to go to any of those. i'm not thrilled about that but hey! what can you do?? that's right nothing. dan i honestly don't know how you can write such long posts. i could do that if i really tried but it wouldn't be about anything cuz whatever i do write that has some interesting things in it is always short because i get strait to the point. oh! i slept over at my friends house on sunday and we rented jackass on DVD and i was watching the extra stuff...sooo good! i wanna buy it. i remember the first time i rented that movie i watched it 3 times in one day! cool eh?! i'm looking at the clock and it looks like it's been the same time since i started typing...oh! there it goes. wow! i'm really bored. i'm sure your probablt sick of reading this and that is why i'm going to let you go.........................................you must be pretty dumb if you thought i was going to let you go now. its only 4:01! i think i'm beating you dan....i actually think that this post is going to be longer than yours.........i remember you wrote an unbelieveably long blog and it's like wow! that was soooooooo long. this is going to be one of those. where you stop less than half way through cuz your tired of reading. thats why i'm going to put juisey information at the bottom of near the bottom so i know whoever reads the wold thing will know my information. actually i think i'm going to start talking about it now............................. we got a new car. it's not really a car. its actually a van. well anyways i think i'm done even though it's only 4:06............................... consider yourself lucky..........i let you off about 25 min..........................24 to be exact!

dont worry matt, i now have a job and i will soon start to pay for pool and also pay you back, right now my priorities are a little fucked, only cuz money seems to burn a hole in my pocket and likes to be spent on shit i dont need, like lunch, and other food associated things. See when i have money and i have the chance to buy food, i do. MAtt i only owe you money, derek is payed back. Matt i agree with you, you should stop paying for pool, i know i am in not position to say that, but i do agree. For those of you that i hang around with all the time, this weekend, if i dont have my high five training i am going up to my trailor, and if not i will be having a party at my place but only on the friday night cuz on the sunday i have to be up at like 6:30 so i can get my ass to the ACC for 8:00am high five training. And just you guys know laura and chris wil not be invited, and if you guys have a problem with that you have two options dont come or deal with it. Cuz i know those are the same two options i have everytime they are their when i hang with you guys. Anyways i'm gonna go now, cuz i have shit to do and then i have to get ready to go to work eventually. So Cya

P.S. it would be really nice to see ang, kim, liz, or pam post something sometime.

i have only one thing to saw on here today...and that is that if we are gunna go play pool anymore, im NOT paying...i have put out 200 dollars in the last month to play pool(and that is only the debits), and have seen little contribution from the other frequent players (ie. leslie, dan, casey), i know u guys have no money but that is not my problem and if u wanna play pool from now on, u are gunna have to put in a share of the money to support the table...

P.S. dont worry dan, i know u put some money down for yesterdays game, and i appretiate that, but that is only once, and must continue...or else im not gunna pay for a table.

ok so how was the movie last night, for those of you that went, and leslie and brooke how was the movie that the two of you saw? anyways i'm glad i didn't go last night, not only cuz i dont have money, but laura and chris were there, and i refuse to be anywhere they are, i dont care what you guys have to say about it, and if you think i'm being dumb, but most of you saw what happened at caseys house, for those of you that dont know, she started with me all night long, she was being a bitch to me all night long. I was behaiving myself but she kept starting with me. Fuck except for when she was saying shit about me i didn't even fucken talk to her. Either way that night was a waste of time, except for the drinking with you guys and caseys brother. And yes diana we should all chill but count me out if laura and chris are there. You guys have to excpet that thats the way i'm gonna work, and if you dont like it then theres the same problem as before but, listen to me now, this is final i am not going out with you guys if they are there, end of story. I am not going to get used to her being around so dont fucken try pulling another stunt like the last one. None of you know what its like.

Well i'm back now, sorry about not staying here, but i went car shopping with my dad and then just ended going up to the trailor, it was fun, we watch that extreme elimanation challange again and then today i spent the whole day driving jeffs golf cart collecting empty beer cans and empty beer bottles. So far we have $68.40 worth. you should see the stack of beer.

vroooooooooooooooooom .................. vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooom .................... whats that noise??? AHHHHHHH WE ARE GONNA DIE ............. wait ..... wait ........i forgot .... thats just the wind ..... lol

flying is FUCKING AWESOME ..... brooke you commin gwith me some time
god damn it that was great ... im one that loves roller coasters anyways so this was fucknig awesome .......
the wind was intense and tossed us around like sons of bitches but was totaly kick ass ...... this fucking caps my weekend off ... so mauahahahah hehe .. weekend sucked .... sunday rocks ... monday still blow though :S
bah ... we got this awesome head set for while we were up there in the sky .... not a cloud in sight woulda been an awesome time if it was night ....... fucking amazing ride

i was wondering if anyone wants to go to see The Italian Job on monday or tuesday...the time will prob be 7:10 at pickering famous players...so just let me know and we will go.