Well Then

Well then today i go camping with cortney, mana, megan, and jesse and some other person... dont quite know how the tent situation is gonna work... and then to top it all off you ahve cortney's mom and tim coming up one day to make sure everything is ok. and probably to see if cortney and i are sleeping together. oh well guess we have to be ready for all surprises... well everything will work out i hope... casey said he'd come even without liz, but i dont really see a point and i'd kinda feel bad. cuz its a bunch of people that he never met. and he'd be staying in a tent on his own. plus we kinda need someone else there for him... and i dont know how well he would get along with corteny's friends... plus he'd want me to drink but i dont want to or have the money to. well i'll finish this later... or just not finish and then write a completely new one on monday when i get home. cya

Lock-Up

Lock-Up was good, it was better then last year, well most of it anyways. I still wish that we could have had the dance/kareoke part in the dance hall, the teen room was way to small for that. But the games and all that stuff was so much better then just the movies last year. We actually had shedualed time for movies but never got around to it. well some people watched movies but alot of people actually played the games that were planned. We did, pictionary, trivia game, sharades, and bingo... ok well the bingo wasn't the best but the other 3 were so much fun. i didn't eat to much of the food, well i tried some of robs cookie, and some of christinas rice crispy trailer and they were both pretty good. I liked the mars bars rice crispy sqaures i made but they were really rich in chocolate. the plain rice crispy sqaures i made were pretty good too, and then the sex in the pan was really good too. everyone loved it, well it was more of a hit with the chaperons. either way it was a good night. sunday i went to bed at 8am and slept till 12:30 but i was still tired as hell during the rec meeting. i only started to wake up during volleyball. after that i just went over to cortneys house and we watch master of disguise, funny movie but not as funny as bruce almighty. anyways i think tonight is a ps2 night. well i'll post again later this week before i go camping. cya

Camping

Hey been awhile since i've been on here. oh well what can you do, i've been out having a good time.. went to cortney's soccer game last night. they lsot by 1 goal.. i think the score was 4-3 or something like that.... either way after that i went home and made my mars bars rice crispy squares... and then one batch of normal rice crispy squares... hmmmm they smell so good. anyways... I'm going camping... lalalalala... with cortney and some of her friends... we wanted to go to Bon Echo but they are completely booked along with every other provincal park in ontario... so we are going to go to warsaw caves camp ground. which is fine... we go caving then... and hiking.. and swimming and canoeing and fires. and what not... hehe so excited...had the sex talk from cortneys mom and stepdad... how we just started going out and there is no reason to rush things etc... heard it all before... anyways so camping yeah, cant wait to go....

Still Going

Today i took half a day off work and when up north with cortney to a meeting at the park and then we went over to the apartment after picking casey up from a place eileen is lending us. the apartment is all riped apart... walls missing, no flooring... justt a mess of stuff. After that we went for lunch/dinner with matt at kelseys.... it was ok but i paid the bill and i better be getting paid back by casey and matt... then casey, cortney and i went to see king aurther at the galaxy cineplex... nice theater... its not uncomfortable like other theaters... all and all a good day cuz i spent it with cortney, even though the meeting was very unpreductive we just end up pushing things further and further back to another date. but thats ok... they have finally decided from going and getting everything for lock-up and prom on thursday... so that'll be a couple things out of the way.. now all thats left is the food for prom... but yeah scott has a busy week ahead of him preparing the games and what not. anyways thats enough for me.. time to turn in... cya

Excellent Mood

I'm  in just a good mood today. so full of energy, so happy. could it be cuz cortney and i are going out now. or maybe i'm losing it. either way its a good feeling... and nothing has gone wrong today.... but lets not jynx that now so knock on wood. welll i haven't had lunch yet so i'm gonna go get that now.

Heaven

This weekend kicked ass... its been so long since i've really gotten to hang out with cortney.. and we had such a good time. aww this summer is turning out to be pretty good... just got to make sure it stays that way...

Terrible

This week has been terrible. Well yesterday was terrible lets put it that way. First i get a call at 5:30am from liz telling me that the apartment in peterborough is flooding, and they are standing in a foot deep of water. So when i go to work i go and try to fill up my car, but i had no money in my account. then i leave work early so i can go up north, but i didn't go up right away, instead i went over to north china buffet with rob, and just as i get out of my car, i locked the keys in the car, and not only that but i left the car running. then when i finally do go up north, i cant get the trunk of my car closed. Then when i came home, i went over to caseys to drink... and i got really drunk and ended up puking. Noelle and casey walked me home at 4:00 am. then today at 6:30 my parents came screaming into my room asking why i came in at 4 in the morning. and at that point only after 2 and a half hours of sleep i still feel like i could be abit drunk. anyways thats my story for today.

Weird

Well if last night wasn't a weird night then i dont know what is... so this is what happend... i went to bed like normally, head at the top of the bed, feet faceing the window... however when i woke up this morning that was not the case, somehow in my sleep i turned around so that my feet were at the head of the bed and my head was at the foot of my bed... weird eh?

Anyways didn't do much yesterday besides go to the mall with derek, matt, sarah and noelle, then picked up zoe afterwards and went to dereks house. we watched dogma, well more or less i watched dogma, and derek tried to watch it. around 12, i started to fall asleep so i decided that was enough for one night and went home to go to sleep.

haven't talked to cortney in a while, not since monday, when she gave me the reasons of why she couldn't see me this week. but i forgot em. all i remeber is driving school tonight and on monday she went to her dads. tuesday/thursday no friggin clue. I know tomorrow i have to go with rob to go shopping for the fashion show and what ever we need to get for the many plans we have. friday after work i am going with a couple people from work over to a restaurant in unionville. oh well what can you do, i'll go at 3, and then leave by 5ish, that way i could be up at the house by 7 hopefully.

Falling

Think i might be falling for noelles friend zoe. shes really cute, and really funny. i gave her a piggy back ride tonight, i felt special. but i know she likes kyle plus shes going back to BC at the end of the summer so that would suck cuz it would only lead to pain. dont really know what else to say about it, except i cant get her out of my head right now....

Posting

I haven't actually been able to sit down and finish a complete post in a long time, something is always rushing me or distracts me while i'm posting. Dont really know if i get my complete thoughts out or not. because its usually a long time before i look back on my previous posts. so when i do i cant really finsih thoughts or complete the post just becuase its so much easier to start a new one wether its on that same topic or a completely new topic.

I went for a walk with matt, derek, zoe and noelle. mainly noelle though, it was nice, we had quite a long talk about whats been going on, with our lives and then just the group in general. Its always so nice to talk to her because she helps me realize things. We definetly get into our fights about things but when we aren't argueing its rather nice to be around her.

Had a chat with cortney last night about laura, didn't go to well, cuz "my immortal" came on, i dont know what it is with music and laura, but so much music reminds me of her, or well has a connection to that time in my life. And yeah thing with cortney and i dont seem to be going any better. i feel like we both remeber what happened but pretend like nothing happend. at least thats the way it feels that might not be the case, i cant really tell with her. i never know what shes thinking, which makes things alittle harder.

Anyways last night was the first time that i really met zoe, before was just some person that i picked up and dropped, and saw with leslie. I actually spent some time with her last night, and had a good time, i think we got along pretty good, i dont know we'll haev to see, i'll speak with noelle about it. i know that she likes kyle and that kyle likes her so there is no point in pursuing anything there, but she'd make a really good friend. plus shes going back to BC at the end of the summer, and i dont really need a recap of the whole steph thing, once was bad enough.

I'm definetly looking forward to finishing work so i can have my vacation, and move out ofthe house. I hate all my dads questions, i know he just wants to make conversation but i dont. i hate making conversation with my parents, they should just let me be and that be that. But i'll be so glad once i'm out. anyways i think thats enough for now, i should get back to work. cya.

Insert Topic Here....

Well i dont really have a title for this post. once again i was in peterborough yesterday, 'cept this time there was no one at the house cuz they all were on the way down as i was on the way up. and then they were on their way up as i was on my way back down to ajax. it sucked ass... well not that bad... i had the whole place to myself, i made dinner watched a movie, and then left at 10. I just got back form cortneys soccer game, they won 4-1 i think, or maybe it was 3-1, oh well they played good. i got eaten alive by some mosquitoes but what else is new. i got my haircut yesterday. but had no gel, so i used my brothers gold colour gel. works pretty good, is an extreme hold. and it makes my hair colour alittle lighter. at least it seems that way. anyways thats enough i'm going to bed.

In Peterborough

Yup, its tuesday evening and i'm at the house. didn't feel like staying in ajax today. although i probably could ahve gone to see cortney, but i dont know if i really wanted too. i think this is the first time that i gave up an oppurtunity to see cortney... could be cuz of last night. i dont know.. but at least its good to be up here. with friends. we made pasta, was pretty damn good for me and casey making it. anyways thats about all ihave to say. so i might post again later this evening, when i go back to ajax.

Should I Bite My Tongue

Well shit really hit the fan last night, i dont know how but we got on the topic of out feelings for each other and what not, and it just didn't go too well. I think cortney finally admitted what the problem is... it took a while for everything to come out but i think it all did. Cortney's always been telling me that she doesn't want anyone to get hurt but she never explain how or why. Well i figured it out last night why shes so afriad, its cuz i'm going away to college and she thinks that things will happen. she told me that she doesn't want to be the one getting in the way of me having a great time or meeting someone. Shes afraid that if we get too attached... well if we get attached period, when i go away somethings gonna happen and one of us are gonna get hurt, mostly her. I tried to convince her that something like that wouldn't happen, and she just kept saying that she doesn't want to be the one holding me back. i really dont think she knows or understands how much i have already fallen for her. and i cant bring myself to tell her, cuz she doesn't want to hear it. it would only make things worse and i would lose what little i have with her as is. thats not something i want to risk. i dont know what else to say. so cya.

Until the day I die, I'll spill my heart for you, for you, Until the day I die, I'll spill my heart for you,

As years go by, I race the clock with you, But if you died right now, You know that I'd die to, I'd die too,

You remind me of the times, When I knew who I was (I was), But still the second hand will catch us, Like it always does,

We'll make the same mistakes, I'll take the fall for you, I hope you need this now, Cause I know I still do,

Until the day I die (Until the day I die), I'll spill my heart for you, Until the day I die (Until the day I die), I'll spill my heart for you,

Should I bite my tongue?, Until blood soaks my shirt, We'll never fall apart, Tell me why this hurts so much - Until The Day I Die - Story Of The Year

Re: So Far So Good

So Far So Good MY ASS!!!

"Everytime I get lost in paradise I find a way to screw it up somehow"

Re: Long Weekend

Long weekend was pretty good, was nice to have a four day weekend. thursday night was pretty good, went to the lake with cortney and her friends to watch fireworks. was a pretty good time. her friends refer to me as her boyfriend, and i think that she did on a couple occasions as well. which was kinda nice to hear, alittle odd but kinda nice. her friends are nice, definatly wouldn't have a problem hanging out with them again. i find thats always a great help, when friends are so welcome and they make the person fit right in. Its always hard introducing new people to a group, especailly such a tight group. i know that i'm always worried about introducing people to our group but its actually not that bad cuz liz and casey are very welcoming. matt is kinda weird for people, and then everyone else is very wierd. thats why its always easiest to introduce people to liz and casey, and everyone always has a good time when caseys around. Just like wonderland, that went realyl well... i mean wagner and his wench are kinda quite but casey and i aren't and neither are kathleen and cortney which worked out. by the end of the day they were all pretty good friends. anyways moving on, friday was pretty good day, spent the whole day at the house with liz and casey. drank 12 or so beers that night, didn't feel anything until the 8th or 9th beer, and then i felt really sick after we had that hamburger helper. i woke up at 3am to puke, wasn't that fun. saturday the slaev auction went well. we raised $860 just on bids. and then we got some donations which raised the total to $1150. Rob was bid on for $115 by Sam's father and he has to work next weekend at thier house, weeding a pond. I was bid on for $125 by Sam, and i had a choice, i could either a) work for 3 hours on sunday, or b) make an ass out of myself at the family dance. So naturally i choose option b. i mean i make an as out of myself anyways, sam even said after the dance, "you guys(christina and myself) dont even need to be told to make a fool out of yourselfs, you already do it own your own." so i got off pretty easy, although it was pretty hot at the dance so within no time was i sweting. Sunday didn't go too bad, did really bad at horseshoes, cuz i was so sore from the dance the night before. then the bottle drive seemed to take forever cuz we weren't in the mood for it and ti was hot as hell. however we did raise $113.40 which is about average for us. bad for a long weekend but average for a normal weekend. and well that was the weekend, oh with the exception of the park now has a large checkers/chess board near the mini-golf. although they didn't buy chess peices cuz they were to big cuz there is no room to store them, they did buy checkers peices and rob and i played for 2 hours on saturday, was pretty funny. anyways thats about it, enjoy.