well its monday, and i'm home, school sucked today, my mind just was not working at all, i made some dumb mistakes, that i would not usually make, like forgetting that i had a test and not studying or forgetting everything that the test was on, oh shit, that reminds my i have the second part of that test due tomorrow so i have to finish it, dont ask it was a take home part. anyways other then i still had some what ofa hugn over when i woke up, jsu tmy head hurt and so did my stomach. I cnat believe i was that drunk... anyways cant wait till the weekend

Hey, Its only sunday- thursday that i have to b off @ 8. On weekends i can b on till whenever. I have to leave soon to my friends house so hurry up and come back so i can talk to u b4 i leave!! Im leaving in an hour or less. well ill talk to u when u come back bye bye

well i takes awhile to get on msn, cuz its fucked up, but i'm usually on around 5ish cuz at 4 i watch Star Trek Voyeger, and i know it sounds gay but its an interesting show, and it only finsihes at 5 so thats when i come online, anyways that sucks if you have to get off by that time, i cuz then i might have to skip my show some times. either way for some reason the blog seems to be working the archieves are showing up, but still there are some things i need to do, like maybe put some pictures in, change some more of the colours. other then that nothign new. anyways...
ciao...

hey dan, I got in shit with my mom so now i can only b on till 7:45 every day.... I just got on and ur not on so i hope i will talk to u b4 i have to get off.

why isnt this blog working?

meh right now i cant get the archives to work so i'm gonna have to fiz that later cuz right now i'm getting fed up with this blog, either way, i'll get around to it at some point in time over then next couple of days, but i still need a background...

hello... I guess i missed u again! My mom kicked me off. the site looks kool wuts up with the title???????? i dont get it! well i gosta go night...

can ne 1 read these posts? if i just post and dont publish?????

hey,
U just got and and got off hm.... well I wanted to wait 4 u but my friend is here so im out, sry. Ill talk to u later. bye bye
steph

well my weekend, was pretty good. When i got up north, i saw jimmy, and i went with his parents on their boat for a little ride. that night, jimmy, alfie and i, all went swimming in the lake, it was like 9:30, and boy was it ever cold, both tims that i've been in the lake this year it has been freezing. then i ate dinner with them, and watched Goodfellas. The next morning i went into town with them, we went looking at pet birds for jimmy, then we started causing trouble in wal-mart, we had the security looking after us. we did stupid things like play hockey in the ilse, with pucks and hockey sticks. I think we knocked over some display case. Jimmy sprayed alfie with glow in the dark silly string. So funny, i think wal-mart was happy when we left. Today was so funny, alfie first told christina off, then jimmy told her off, so she left. It was interesting, she wouldn't believe anything i told her about alfie, like how he only wanted peace from her, but meh, she found out the hard way, maybe she shouldn't have palyed games with him, jimmy, or me for that sakes. Dammit she played games with everyone all year and last year. She started at jeff, then went to alfie, then to jimmy, then to me, then to alfie again, then to chris. And alfie and i called it the next person would be ashley and we were right, she almost kissed ashley, its to funny, of how much of a doorknob she is. meh what can you do. anyways steph you just came online so i'm gonna go and talk to you there...
ciao....

Last night wuz wierd. me and my friends tried to sleep on the trampoline and we woke up @ 5 and it wuz raining really hard. Its cold out today. No1 is home so its probably just gunna b me today. I had a dream about u and U had ur eyebrow peirced haha. It looked really funny. well im gunna go watch some movies we rented, Hopefully Ill talk to u sunday
xoxo
steph

steph i can get drunk whenever i want... i have booze almost all of the time, i just choose when to get drunk and when not to get drunk... thats why whenever i order some more, i always go with a 40 cuz i know i cant finish it in one sitting so i know i'm good for awhile, and my the time i need more theres another liquer run so i'm all set. I just place another order of some 40, or i've been thing about starting to buy beer, cuz 3 of my friends drink beer now, and beer is so much more fun to drink, then hard liquer. Its more of a social thing. bah anyways whatever it may be, i know i had fun tonight, and steph i missed you, i wanted to talk, about what i do not know, but thats ok. either way i kinda cant sleep right now dont know why, i think cuz there is still alot of alcohol still i nmy system, i had like a nap for awhile but when i woke up i felt drunk again, trust me, that is a fucked up feeling. anyways i think i'm gonna try and fall asleep again so talk to you tomorrow morning, i'm only around until noon. ewwww my nose just started running and it smells like puke at least i think it does...... anyways good night....
ciao....

Hello,
Ur Lucky u can get drunk. all we have here is royal crown and its gross. My friends r spending the night 2 of em. we wanna get drunk:(
we might just mix that stuff in with sumthing. It wuz fun tonight, we were trying to rave and we have never done it b4. haha. Tonight wuz actually fun tho. well Im gunna go, bye bye

well a night of drunken fun turned into almost a waste. somethhing bad always happens, well tonight leslie started puking really really bad, and then pasted out, and that was by 9:00, then liz and casey are in this big tiff cuz hes pissing her off. anyways it was fun while it lasted. Casey, Adam, John and myself started drinkign around 4:00pm and kepot drinking until 8:30ish, by that time john and casey had like 7-8 beers and i had 2 glasses of rum and coke(strong ones), and 2 beers. Adam, had 5 beers. Ah being drunk with john is so much fun. Damn Leslie puked on liz, all down her shirt and everything. The thing i liked most about the evening was its the first time everyone was together. Casey, Adam, John, Derek, Chris, Kathrine, Laura, Leslie, and myself, the only person missing is matt but he had to work and hes getting off at 11 but thats not improtant cuz i'm already home, so its all good. anyways sorry steph if i scared you earlier, but i was a bit drunk, you must forgive me, i know i didn't say anything stupid so its all good. See i can act sober when i have to cuz i had to call my parents cuz they sent me a text msg saying i have to call them so i did. and everything was cool, i passed of being sober, and i also did it again just now to keep them thinking thati didn't drink cuz i called to let them know that i was at home. anyways i think i'm gonna fall asleep now....
ciao...

i've got my booze, i've got my booze,
i'm gonna drink, i'm gonna drink,
i am so smart, i am so smart,
s-m-r-t............

sounds interesting, i got at least one party to go to thats if i get my 40 of rum, and if not i may as well just go up north, cuz there isn't much else to do. Friday night will be the first night in a long time that i've gotten completely wasted. I think the last time was beginning of the summer, when linkin park, metallica and limp bizkit were in town. man did that weekend hurt, i fell out of a tree. And two drunk guys in pizza pizza tried to sell us pizza in there. They were drunk, we were drunk it was so funny. O well, either way i'm going up north on saturday afternoon, cuz my dad is coming home to take my brother to german school, so they're gonna pass the house and pick me up. i mioght be hung over, but i doubt it, cuz i dont get hung over, my parents can just tell by looking at me the day after though so o well. i dont care... they cant do anything about it. i'm not driving so its ok.... anyways...
ciao

today sucked, i ended up going to school and i got soaked 4rm the rain and my shoes were muddy and i walked around in my socks 4 the rest of the day. I have a few parties to go to this weekend, and than im gunna go to dallas 4 a football game

i feel sick i dont think im goin to school tomorrow. I have my report biology project to do and im gettin really stressed cuz i cant find any info on this dude. well , shower time.........

yeah today was a good day, jsut got home. I Only had 2 periods today. At lunch matt drove me home to pick up my car, after that we went into the bank to withdraw some money to make insurance payments, then we went back to the school, and chilled there until 4th period. at that point we went into whitby and looked at car audio stuff, i'm looking for a deck right now and matts looking for subs and an amp. Oh then we went to kathrines house to help her with math, and i sat there and played games on her calculator, they were so fun. I beat her high score on one of the games, the score was 20 and i got 160, hehe i feel special. Other then that matt and i drove around, i love driving, my car is so much fun. I like going fast hehe.

i found a funny version of the song "I Would Walk 500 Miles" by the Proclaimers. The version is by Less Than Jake, and its got the best verse ever....

When I wake up, yeah I know Im gonna be,
I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
When I go out yeah I know Im gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you
And If I get drunk, yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you
And if I haver whatever that means
I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you

steph i warn you before you read this post, cuz it might upset you, but i need to get it written out to help me, so you can read it but if you do thats your choice and if you do get upset i am sorry but i need to do whats gonna help me. some parts of this song apply but not all, and i'm jsut dont care that much to take out the parts that dont matter and dont apply. anyways ciao

"The Boys Of Summer"
Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home

But I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

Out on the road today, I saw a BLACK FLAG sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

bah forget that post i'm feeling good

Well another week comes to an end, and another weekend starts, what will happen this weekend, i have no clue. this weekend feels like it will be different then others. But i'm sure that the weekend will be fine, i'm gonna go and see christina play hockey. Anyways, i'm gonna try and get more people as part of this blog, i'm gonna try and get everyone from the trailor, i did try once before but i think i'll try again. well i think i'l lstart getting my shit ready so that i can get up there, i think i'll get drunk this weekend. but with who i dont know yet, cuz i dont feel like it just being me this weekend.
-ciao

Anyways, so one day gone to waste so far because of my little run into Biggs yesterday during soccer tryouts. What I don't understand is how he walked away from it, while I had to gimp off the field. My knee was fine until I got home, then it really started to feel fucked, my knee has been getting a bit better during the day, my walking skills have been kinda on and off all day. On to another topic I like the fact that this new blogger has a spell check, but I gotta teach it some words so that I can still type the way I usually type but at least spell the bigger words right. Anyways, English class sucked today, it was the first time in two days that I've been there, and it really blows, analyzing essays is not something I like to do, let alone be being good at it. That's why I'm in the fucking class again, cuz I failed the first time, I cant do this shit. I don't have any problems with the teacher yet. Damn Mrs. Higgs called me down today cuz of the skippage that has taken place in the last two days. I avoided a detention which was good, but she said that they'll just kick me out if I skip instead of giving me a detention cuz I'm almost 18, and its my 5th year. Well it was an experience and a half to play pool today during spare, I haven't played pool in so long. I lost my skill. I think me getting on the soccer team is probably not gonna happen cuz, I mean, I sucked yesterday and I didn't go today cuz of my knee, which means that basically I didn't do to good in tryouts. Oh well what can you do. I cuz its just gonna have to stick with playing indoor soccer and what not again. I'm outta here for now....

yo know life has its ups and downs, and just when you think your getting to the top, you start going downhill, like a roller coaster, theres the long slow climb to the top and then its mostly downhill for awhile and then you start to slow down, and start back up hill, but only to find out that over the top is another hill to go down.

For anyone that has been with me and has decided to leave, and for anyone that will be with me and decide to leave this is for you...

Some day you'll cry for me like i cried for you,
Some day you'll miss me like i missed you,
Some day you'll need me like i needed you,
Some day you'll love me, but i wont love you!

from a bad feeling to bad news to just ruining the day, and the week, so life goes on, gotta take a shot to the heart and suck it up and keep going. Theres nothing like a good blow to the heart to keep you on your toes. i know i'm just rambling, but thats fine, i wish i didn't leave my alcohol up north cuz i'm gonna want it this weekend, and i'm not going up there. cuz its gonna be awkward, i might go up i haven't decided. cuz now its gonna be fucke,d cuz i have catlyn mad at me, meaning so is rob, and ang broke up with me that basically emlinates both groups to hang out with, and jimmy and alfie wont be up so thats it. i've fucked myself over. it was going to be ok cuz i could have chilled with ang, but thats not gonna happen now. Shit, fuck, dammit, lack of better words. pissed as hell, first i have to deal with a hypocrite, then ang. forget everything i said about it being a great idea to go out with friends and shit like that, cuz it doesn't work. just call me the the guinne pig, cuz i go for shit and i find out what its like, and i exprience shit, so if anybody has any questions and they need an opinion just ask me, cuz i've delt with enough shit for one person. and life isn't even over.

well another summer comes to an end and another year at school starts. At least this year its gonna be different, its really only half a year but then i have to go to university, which is something i'm really not prepared to do, i feel my place is to go striaght into the working world rather then going through school and becoming some guy that sits behind a desk with a white colar shirt and tie, for 50 years. i just cant see myself doing it, i dont want to be tied down, put behind a desk until i retire, i'd rather be out doing something with my hands, were i'm not going to waste, its not all about making money, its about being in a job that you enjoy doing and a job that makes you happy, and gets you what you need. To tell you the truth i dont see any one from my generation become some big business person with a white colar shirt and tie. I think that our generation just isn't mature enough to be set lose into university. I'm even taking a fifth year and i still dont feel ready to move on to university, i guess i'm not ready to grow up and i thhink that might have to do with the people i hang around with and how they act. None of my friends are ready to grow up. Its not university that scares me, its whats after that, and the choices i have made, i have set myself up for a job in computer science, now from what it seems that job might get me stuck at a desk, i'd rather that job lead me to a computer company were i fix computers and sell hardware and such. Instead of programming, thats not what i'd like to be doing for the next 50 years of my life. Think of it this way thats have or even more then half of your life spent behind a desk. i like working with my hands, like being a mechanic, when i look back at when i worked at star one, i enjoyed watching the mechanics and what they did, and they seem to be getting along just fine in life. I'm not that type of person, i'm not an academic, thats just not me. I'm sure if you read over what i'm writing and actually check it for grammer and shit like that, you see that i'm not. I wish i could go back to grade 9 and do high school all over again, and maybe make the right choices to get me to a more applied future father then a academic one. When i look at ang she has all over her high school career left, and she acts so mature, i think shes gonna make it somewhere, but because of my choices i fear that i will not be able to make it in the working world, because i will not be qualified. I call this little blurp and time in my life, my teenage crisis.