Long Weekend

So come this time an hour from now, i'll be on my way home for the long weekend. still need to find someone to sell this damn ticket to, i wonder if courtney sold it to her boyfriends friends. i should call her but i cant call her until after 4. cuz thats when camp ends. So this weekend is the teen slave auction... YEAH!(sarcastically) another year another bunch of stupid shit i have to valenteer for. its become so bad that its not even volunteering anymore its assumed that i'm doing it. i dont mind the slave auction but i do mind the fashion show, i didn't even volunteer for that one, i was voluntold. i really dont feel like dressing up as a chick. not fun. the lock up wont be so bad, unless my brother goes. then it'll be a pain in the ass. i know i haev to go visit jimmy and alfie one day. Lish invited me to go with her oneday after work. so i have to call her and find out what day she is going. anyways i better get to work. ciao

Ok So

Ok so, i got steph in trouble again last night, cuz someone was logged in on her name, more specifically her mom, and sent a message without knowing this. all i put was "steph are you there?" cuz i wanted to ask her for some advice on what i can do about cortney. everything is going fine, but i kinda want to know what i should make of it. like we aren't going out cuz she doesn't want to but we do things a couple would do. i dont know its weird and i kinda want an opinion on it. but i guess thats fucked to shit now. and stephs in tons of trouble again. her mom wrote me an email saying that stephs not allowed online anymore, and not allowed to see her family up at the trailor cuz of me. what the fuck, her mom is a bitch. all because i wanted some fucking advice. steph has a b/f and i'm interested in cortney, what the hell could her mom think would possibly come out of a 2 sec conversation. bah... for fucks sake. oh well.

Hey Hey

Hey, In a pretty good mood this morning, a bit tired but in a good mood none the less. Got to see cortney last night. went to see Riddick, good movie but the ending was alittle abrupt and definetly not the best part of them movie. it was too happy of an ending. oh well i saw it with cortney so that makes it all the better. rest of the weekend was ok. lost again in horseshoes, cuz i wasn't nathans partner. that little fucker won first place in the money tournement on sunday morning. saturday was pretty good, had a dance at the park, made an ass out of myself as usual. i was pretty hyper. afterthe dance i went to the house had 3 beers with matt, got alittle drunk so i went to sleep, it was so wierd 3 beers and it did me in pretty much, it might have been cuz i was so tired and was bearly able to stay awake. firday, drank with casey, more so then on saturday night with matt, and ended up stealing another fleming sign, got lost in a forest, went to matts work to find out matt wasn't there. but they had good chicken ceaser salad. other then that didn't do anything, well with the expection of going to cortney's soccer game on thursday. I wonder if she plays on canada day, either way i'm going to see her that night anyways for the fireworks display. then casey and i are heading up to the hosue probably for some more drinking but i need a case of beer first i only have two left in the fridge. hopeing to buy my computer this week. hopefully. anyways gotta get back to work cya.

Seems Ok

Well things seem ok with me and cortney again, i find that if we just dont talk about being in a relationship, and just conintue going on the way were are going on even though it is like we are in one just not offically, we're good to go. well i'm at the house now and its 7:48 in the morning. well correction i got to the house last night, drank some beers with casey, then went out to try and find more signs. we got two, a fleming sign which is mine and then a no motorized vehicle sign which is also mine. i think cortney may have wanted me to go to her game lastnight but i wasn't near my phone so i didn't see my msgs until 9 which it would have been too late to go back down for. by the time i got there the game would have been pretty much over. anyways i'll post again tomorrow.

Bored

Well here i sit in front of this damn computer again. pissed off cuz of all this stupid crap, like pop ups or little toolbars that automatical download and what not... i wrote an email to one company today to bitch. lets see what becomes of that. i just had a conversation about a snail getting eating by a cat hich gotten eaten by a dog which got run over by a car which then become grass for a sheep and a turtle untl cortney told me turtles dont eat grass so i told her fine i'll take my turtle to my island where we can eat all the grass we want. And the best part about the conversation was it was all in emoticons. anyways i dotn know what to post so tata

Dream

yeah so a couple days ago i had a weird dream, but only really thought about it this morning. anyways the dream consisted of me at a funeral/viewing. more specifically laura's. She had died in that car crash she was in on her drivers test. Anyways so there i was at the funeral/viewing all dressed up and what not like your supposed to be. Everyone was there, chris, matt, liz, casey, leslie, sarah, john, stew, the whole gang. I'm not sure why i was there, but i felt it approprate to be there. So anyways i was one of the last ones to walk up to the casket, and i had brought with me that blue bear laura bought me when we were going out, and i placed it in the casket with her. said my goodbyes and then i woke up. I dont really know what to think of it, cant say it shows that i hate her or want her to die cuz i was upset that she was gone. I dont know, i've noticed that i go through phases when i'm having a hard time with a relationship. usually these phases consist of missing laura and having an urge to just call her up and talk to her about my problems but i never do. dotn really know what to make out of all this. but i'm sure this isn't the last time i'll be posting about this.

No Title

No Title, for the non-existent words that try and come out of my mouth. Guess that makes for one non-existent post.

Bad Day

so once again phrases prove themselves... "all good things must come to and end." Weekend was good, today was shit. wasn't so mmuch the day just some of the stuff that happened today. this thing with cortney took a turn for the worse, we talked about how she doesn't date, and that shes not changing her mind, and when she does its not gonna be for long term. she just wants to have fun or not get involved with anyone cuz that way no one gets hurt... well we both know that its a little too late now to not be involved. once again where is everyone when i need to talk to someone. i dont think this thing with cortney is going to get any better or go away cuz if we forget about it now its gonna come up again. i mean things will only get worse before they get better. i all most feel like calling laura and talking to her about it. but i doubt that will go too well. i'm sure she'll hang up on me or ask my why i'm calling her. well i dont really know what else to say or whatto do now, i think i might just go for a drive. ciao

Good Weekend

Ok so the weekend wasn't that bad. i went to a drive in with cortney and a bunch of other people but it was only me and cortney in my car. we saw harry porter 3 and troy(which i've already seen, but it was worth it) anyways we gotta outta the drive in around 3:30am. i was damn tired, got back to the house and everyone was passed out. what fun is that. oh on friday i got bitched at by the fucken rent-a-pig says i was a) going to fast, b) messing aroud, c) letting someone run next to my car. then on saturday i had scott bitch at me for it and then today rich took his turn. bastards the lot of them, rich put me on probation whatever thats supposed to mean aside from anything i do now will get my kicked out of the park, so maybe its a good a idea not to have casey or other people come round to the trailor that often cuz casey for sure causes alot of problems. Anyways on to the better thigns again, last week on thursday i went to cortneys soccer game, i dont know how much she apprechated that but oh well at least i'm proving to her parents that i'm caring and will come out to any little even of hers that she'll let me come to. i'm going this week to her game as well. hope i see her some time during the week before that. we kinda have to make the most out of the summer cuz i'm going away to college and she'll be busy with grade 12 so we wont see each other that much, but at any chance i get i hope to see her. plus it'll be easier next year cuz she'll be moving out to peterborough as well cuz she is going to trent university. lauras going there too, wonder how often i'm gonna end up seeing her, i would imagine that she will be spending alot of time at the house, because i'm sure its rather boring on rez. i wonder how well either one of us will take that cuz its still rather awkward. i dont know, i'd like to be friends with her again, she was a fun person at times, very enjoyable to be around. anyways i think thats enough for me for now, i think i'm going to go to bed now. didn't get much sleep last night cuz i got home from the drive in at 4 and then was up again by 9 cuz liz was taking to herself. supposedly i opened matts door which makes no sense why the fuck would i do that... and if i woke him up when i came in oh boohoo i had to go to the bathroom his problem that hes next to the bathroom not mine... like casey and i agree i got the better and bigger room out of the two. anyways ciao

Picture

Well i came across a picture last night of avril that i just cant seem to get over and it looks so much like laura... i asked wagner about it but he says only the hair looks the same... i disagree i think it looks remarkably close to laura...

Musical Thoughts

Well today i heard that song call "Don't Tell Me" by avril lavigne. its not the first time i heard the song but it is the first time that it kinda made me think. i dont think about the lyrics but i did think about laura. i remeber when people would asked me what laura looked like, i would just say she looks like avril lavigne. so kinda every time i see or hear about avril it reminds me about laura cuz they looked so much alike, at least i thought/think so. I dont know, casey already knows this but i do miss her, laura that is, not avril. altough one can always dream, right? On the same note about music, i thought about some of the lines from the song called "Rest Of My Life" by Sloan. its a good song, and that line about the rest of my life really makes me think about the rest of my life, i mean i'm moving out shortly, i'm going to be going to college, i kinda want to find someone and hold onto the through school and then hopefully one day get married after schooling and once i have stable job. i know i have a long life ahead of me but the thing is this is the time when you set up the rest of your life, and i'm not really doing anything about it. i dont really care about whats going on, well i do but only to some extent just because i dont feel like doing anything about it. i guess you could say that i'm lazy rather then just dont care. I dont know but i seam to find a connection between the two thoughts here, and i think it might have something to do with the fact that i might still want to be with her even after everything that has happened. i know liz would slap me if i ever said that, and i can just hear it know that, that is probably the stupidest thing i have said in a while but i mean can't help how i feel right. i dont know we just went through so much together. its been more then a year since i've really talked to her. i dont really find myself lost without but i do find myself lonely. i dont know else to say, i dont really know how to explain either. think i'm going to bed.

Happenings

Hey Hey, weekend was pretty good. Friday after work, went over to ikea with matt, purchased my bed frame and what not, and picked up those book shelves. Then we went to yorkdale and walked around until john and stew showed up. meh, stew kinda pissed me off, same with john. cuz they came down to drink with everyone, but stew already promised that he was going to drink with chris/laura/leslie on Saturday night which was fine but he also told them that he was gonna drink with them on Friday night. So technically instead of come down to see everyone he came to drink with chris/laura/leslie. Which causes problems cuz the group isn't really a group anymore, we have split up. So I didn't hang out with stew all weekend. And then john saying he was going to stay up north on Saturday night with me and casey and matt, decided that he would go back and drink with chris/laura/leslie. So they both pretty much came down to drink with chris/laura/leslie. Oh well to bad for them they missed a pretty good time on Friday night. Casey and I drank a couple beers and coolers then went for a walk around town at 3 am. Now on our walk we just so happened to acquire 5 street signs that we didn't have before, plus a really nice wooden no trespassing sign. Saturday I went to the trailer, which was ok, page showed up 10 mins after I got there. Then casey and I went for a swim and had dinner at the park. I cooked hamburgers on the BBQ while casey and I had a beer. Then instead of going and trying to get into the concert we stayed at the park, and went to the dance, cuz they wanted me to DJ. It kinda sucked at first but got better after casey and I went to the trailer and chuged 2 more beers each. once we got back to the dance it started to get better cuz we had a couple beers and I made a complete ass out of myself. although I dont really bringing casey or anyone for that matter to those dances, cuz its more of a seperate lifestyle, and i'm alot more hyper and not in a ok lets go cause trouble kinda way its more of just haveing a really good time while making people laugh. I dont think that I will have anyone from the house or from Ajax at the dance. They can come to the trailer park for a swim and maybe a boat ride and what not, but not for dances. Saturday wasn't too bad. I had to be at Marcus' house for 5:15am, meaning I had to get up at 3. cuz I thought it would take me 1 1/2hs to get there but in actual fact it took only an hour so I got there by 4:45 cuz I left the house at 3:30 and had to get gas otherwise I wouldn't have made it. Well I took him to the airport. It took 30mins to get there from his house which is pretty good considering I was doing 140 the whole way there. Oh on the way back was the best cuz I was driving his S55 with 500 horsepower, so I thought it would be a good idea to see how fast I could go. Well I managed to get to 260km before the car wouldn't really accelerate anymore. Well it was but really slowly. I got back to the house at 7:30 had me nap, and got up for horseshoes at 9:15. Horseshoes was ok, I was nathan's partner this time and we lost all our games but one. We ended up with at total score of 41 points in 4 games which is really bad cuz in the other games we got 17, 10 and 3. Then after horseshoes rob and I did the bottle drive, which brought in $150 dollars worth of empties. Which is pretty good. Then I just stayed in the park with page and rob until 8. And that's when I went back to the house picked up my stuff and headed home, and I was in bed by 10 cuz I was so damn tired. So I guess I did have a pretty eventful weekend which is good. I still dont have my car back yet, i'm waiting to for it to be finished I dont know what they still have to do to it. But hopefully I get it back today cuz I dont do anything with out my car, and hopefully I get to see Cortney after her exams this week, I think she's done tomorrow. Well we'll see if not then I'll see her this weekend. I still have to get rid of that edgefest ticket I dont really want to go. But I cant find anyone I can sell it too. Oh well that's about enough for today. Ciao

Ello Ello

Hello, today so far has been a pretty good day, minus the heat. well not really the heat but the humidity. if there wasn't so much humidity it be pretty decent weather. anyways so yesterday liz picked me up from work and we went over to ikea with matt and sarah. found the bed frame i want, but it doesn't really have storage areas so i'm gonna buy a shelf which fits the head board and i'll just mount the self to the wall at the height of the headboard and then the bed will just be maybe a foot away from the wall which is fine. gives me access to the plug thats the bed is blocking. and then i'll buy a side table just kinda cover up the whole a little. but i wonder how much weight the shelf and the wall can support before it comes down. i might need to put some sort of support under the shelf to kind hold it up. or i can place the shelf so that it sits onttop of the headboard so that the bedframe supports whats on the shelf. i still need to get some shelfing installed in my closet. and i wonder what we are going to do with those bookcases cuz they are really solid. anyways i dont really know what else to say except it looks like Marcus might be taking an afternoon flight to montreal so around 3 or 4. which is perfect cuz then i can drink friday night and then still make it in time for the concert on saturday. ciao

Weekend

well this weekend wasn't too bad, 'cept it was pretty boring cuz nothing was going on. the only good part about the weekend was horseshoes when i got two ringers in one game. although my team didn't to well for the rest of the time, two ringers is pretty good. so this weekend coming up i haev to work on saturday morning hopefully it doesn't take to long, i still haevn't found out what time the boss has to be at the airport for. once i'm back from the airport i'm going to see when liz wants to go up on saturday and maybe then we only need to take one car cuz matts gonna already be up there. and i'll offer to drive cuz i'll need my car up there so i can be in and out of the trailor park as i wish.

First Night Up

So last night was the first night any of us stayed at the house, and we were all there surprisingly. either way it was good, its gonna take some time to get used to living on our own, but we will figure things out. i forgot when our garbage days are. and for awhile we are only up there on the weekends, well except casey. before casey moves and starts living up ther permeantly we should really get the phone line and the internet installed along with our cable or satellite, what ever were getting, i dont really care as long as its cheap. i'll finish this later

The House

Today is the first day of june. that means that as of today the apartment is ours, liz, casey and matt are already on the way up to take some stuff up. they are gonna take all of liz's stuff up today, but shes not gonna be living up there until she finds a job up there. The only thing holding casey back is the fact that liz will be living up here. matt won't move up there until hes got a job up there. I still have a job down here but i'm still bring things up on the weekend. I gotta figure out how to take that damn bed up there. trip with an m-class maybe, tie the damn thing to the roof, might take two trips cuz its a mattress and a box srping. i dont think it has a frame, i'll ask sharon if its got a frame i think it does and i think its green which would go prefect with the carpet. I still dont know what i can get from my parents aside from that tv. and that old vcr, hopefully it still works. i gotta take my stereo up. maybe i should write out a list of all the stuff i need to take up there this weekend. that probably would be the best and smartest idea, that way i dont forget anything that really needs to be up there. anyways i'm going for lunch ciao