i seem to averaging one to two posts a week know, although i'm sure there are some weeks were i didn't post at all i know i didn't post for almost a whole month. things kinda get lonely when your by yourself. its been strange for the last little while i dont really talk to that many people, its kinda starting to pick up a bit now, with kim and terri, and then the odd time brooke. well work is ok, but i dont really wantto be here that often in the summer, i want to be able to go home early or go to partys and then not have to come in the next day. or stay at the trailer a whole week. things just to get away from work, and ajax. i read lauras blog today, i got to as far when she started going out with chris and when i left her blog, man things were different back then. thigns haev changed so much since that point. i dont know what to realyl say about all of it. i found it kinda odd that the date i stopped at was march 21, 2003 which was a couple days ago minus a year. i dont know why i went to lauras blog, and i find it weird that it was almost exactly a year since things really started to change and i stopped talking to her and she started going out with chris. wow. its been a very long and very weird year. yeah the day i found out she was going out with chris i left a realyl nasty post on her blog. i found it interesting that she just kinda ignored it all. all my mosts pretty much she ignored, i find it strange, maybe that should have been a sign right from the beginning that ireally wasn't that important to her. who knows. well the past is the past, i got things goign now in the future. so i should be ok for a while unless of course something else happens. than that would really be the shits. it seems that this time of the year, the first three months of the year are always the worst. but i'm not gonan go into that, lets just say 2002 - kim/laura/aaron, 2003 - laura/mike/chris, 2004 - steph/steph's mom and step dad.