well...i haven't posted in a while and uh ya...ive had a pretty bad week...first i think my rat is dying...Cody dumps me...but today i went snowboarding and i had fun and Kris was actually nice to me...surprising! today was like the only good day of my week! my body is aching! i want to go out today but im not sure if thats gunna happen...frig and no matter what i do i can't get my mind off Chad...i don't know what it is that makes me like him so much but i do...and it makes me mad cuz the morre i try not to like him the more i do like him...it wierd and messed up and so am i and i think im loosing my mind...