there is a more serious tone that has to be put on things though ... my foot ...isnt getting better any time soon ... and my doctor wants me to let them operate on it and i do not want that .. not in the slightesti healed from this shit last time it happened .. i guess thats why im so damn protective of it... i know its healed once .. why the fuck not twice eh? ... they insist none the less .. and are trying to persuade my parents to convince me or to even act against my wishes ... and they know very well that my wishes are for them all to fuck off .. but thats besides the point ... i know that if i let this get to me im going to lose all sence of myself and everything im used to is going to fall to the shitters ... my health is all ive ever had ive always healed at alarming rates ...i was born to die and yet lived cause i healed faster then i was supposed to ... 4 hernias and pneumonia cant even kill me as a baby, 2 week baby my ass ...what the fuck do doctors know they have always been wrong with me ... why the fuck would a muscle tear fuck my ankle over so bad?
no never not until its going to stop me from moving .. will i THEN have a surgery ...i havent had surgery since my tumour was removed i dont intend on it again until i decide to mave my remaining tumour removed .. but once again thats my decision ...

sorry people ... this is me spilling my shit ...i dunno why the fuck the rain did this to me ... but i just had to get it out ... although i am looking forward to a bottle of booze ... but thats my problem considering my funds ....

those of you who are my friends ... beyold ... a side you only see when i let my guard down ...
to those that dont have a clue ... welcome to the hell that is my life ... but beware ... there's only room for one

well its 7:23 ... rains stopped ... foot doesnt hurt that much ... still havent moved ... no tired yet either ... not that hungry ... think ill just lay back and think to myself for a bit

take it easy people ... the hard way just isnt worth it