ive lost to much already ... i dont want to see my friends lose anything or anyone else and im rambling as i always do .... but ive been thinking and i wont be able to stand losing someone else ...its going to kill me
i would kill myself to bring kyle and his family back ...i loved him longer then ive known my closest friends now combined ... and only one thing would seperate me from my friends now ... and since its not possible to brig a life back from the sacrifice of ones self ... seperation seems unfeesable. but just give me the chance ...... and id take it ... without a second thought id take it and not regret it ...

you guys woulda loved him ... he has the same sence of humour as me ... cept he isnt as loud .. hehe and he is a lot less of an ass hole ...he's tall as me ...thin .. fit ...a good looking guy all around ... but its his personality that keeps people near him regardless of how far away he may be .. no matter who you are ... where you are ... when he sees you ... he knows when your not in a good mood ... when your having a shitting day ... when ya need someone to retreat to and just heave all your problems onto ... he is there waiting willing helping(i guess he wore off on me and thats why i like helping my friends) ... i could sure use him right now ...but its ok ...id actually rather deal with it on my own .. rest in peace my brother , least nothing can happen to you there ......

ive realized a few things over the past little while ... there are a few things from my past that i have to drop ... some fears .. some resentments ... some ... habits .... ive gotta stop being down all the time cause im sure its that , that made me sick