Ah fuck christmas, this guy, lets call him "homewrecker", well lets see this guy is hitting on someone i love dearly and lets just say that he plans to ask her out when she goes down to his house on the 3rd... and he also wants some serious things to happen... i swear if she goes down there, or ever walks off with him at school, i wil lnever ever talk to her again, and then she can go do what ever the fuck she pleases, like going over to his house and getting serious again..just like the last time she was down there... he said she was an excellent kisser, and excellent at some other stuff... oh boy am i gonna fucking rip his head off when i see him on the first day of school. he so looks at her, i'm gonna fucking beat the shit out of him. I cant believe that he wants to see her, and wants some action from her again... i cant belive he wants to ask her out. i hope hes fucking playing her for a fool, if he is being serious hes in for it, and shes gonna get a mouthfull from me if anything ever happens with that kid... i've been told by some of my most trusted friends not to put up with shit like this... i was told that i most be the nicest boyfriend in the world to put up with crap like that... i dont know... i just love her so much, and i want to be with her... but i know that if hings keep going like they are i should leave because i dont deserve to go through shit like this all the time, i mean this has happened before... i keep trusting her, i was told that i was an idiot. but i dont think that, that matters to me because of my feels for her... i know people are trying to look out for me cuz they care, and i thank you guys for it, i really do... people dont understand just how i feel, i know one person that i have talked to knows how i feel somewhat just cuz they have had very strong feelings for someone, and they have trusted their other so much, and things just happen, i feel sorry for that person because stuff like that just shouldn't happen, i wouldn't even wish it on some of my worst enemy's... the stuff i have gone through i hope nobody ever has to go through again, homewrecks are the worst type of people and they should all be shot... just another reason why i hate humankind so much... i'll finish this later.

Hold me now / I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking / That maybe six feet / Ain't so far down